The bar was a heap of
contradictions; 20th Century
London, Earth, thousands of light years out in space;
dark and smoky,
full of
bright orange neon; in a small space station where to
imbibe alcohol
was
against federate laws, wall-to-wall cops and station
crew drinking as
though it
was the last day of their lives.
The
universe was filled with joints like this and the
alien who called
himself
�Captain Jack Harkness� was leaving a trail of
diamonds across it for
the
Doctor to follow; from one bar on one planet in one
solar system, to
the next
bar in the next solar system, to the next bar, and so
on.
They were real too; quarter-inch ten carat
stones
mined on a small moon this side of Kurhan, stolen in a
heist two years
ago then
lost to history and mystery until now.
Jack was spending them like they were
half-talmars, running up
bar bills
before pretending to have lost his wallet and offering
the barman one
of the
gems before he got beaten up and thrown out on his
ass.
It didn�t seem to matter that however much he
drank he never seemed to get drunk.
The Doctor picked up a bar
menu from the sticky surface and
looked at the strange symbols written horizontally
left to right. �Does
everything taste the same after a while?� �I�ve been following you.� The Doctor shook his head.
�Not this time, I think you need it.
Besides, there�s no point if you keep fixing
it.� �Saving the world costs
more than people think.� He
watched Jack
lift the glass to his
lips. �Can I ask... where
did you get
the Kurhan diamonds?� The Doctor ignored that;
even if Jack had only half-meant it
to be rhetorical. �You
saved millions,� he
offered, but he knew it wasn�t any kind of comfort.
He rested a gentle hand on
Jack�s shoulder. �Touch�.�
Still at Jack�s side, the
Doctor squeezed his shoulder
gently. �She�s a better
woman than
that.� Out of no other need but to
empathise, the Doctor leaned down
and kissed Jack�s head, smelling stale smoke and
coffee in his hair. �All
those children you saved, their parents
would thank you.� �I killed the one I should
have saved.� He heard
tears in Jack�s
voice and felt those
residual feelings for the man like an ache in his
stomach.
�Stephen trusted me. Damn
it, Ianto
trusted me... loved me.� Jack
gulped down
a mouthful of his drink and
the sweet odour of it hit the Doctor full force. �You
know... he died in my arms, and I
couldn�t even give him three words � three little
words.�
He shook his head and finished the vile green
liquid. �I�m pathetic.� Jack�s head bowed and for a
minute or so he didn�t speak. Eventually,
he
murmured, �I just need to keep
moving.� Jack laughed.
�Now you
want me, Doc? Now I�ve
hit rock bottom �
drinking every night even though I can�t get drunk,
tearing my way
across the
galaxy in air-tight cargo holds, paying my way with
stolen diamonds �
now you
want me? You�ve pushed me
away for
years. Why now?� He shook his head.
�Everyone dies around me, Doc.
Not gonna take responsibility for anyone.� Finally, Jack turned his
head, looked up. And the
Doctor took a
single step back. Ianto
Jones was standing
beside him at the
bar. Real.
Alive.
Smiling. There was
a single
moment, like time standing still. Then
Jack
was on his feet, his lover�s name on his lips, arms
reaching for
the man
who moved towards him like a magnet.
Jack apologising, Ianto hushing him, Jack
saying, �love you,�
over and
over as they clung to one another.
No
one in the bar batted an eyelid, or any other part of
their facial form. The
Doctor gave them time and in time they
settled,
Ianto sitting at the bar, Jack pulling his stool up
behind him,
wrapping his
arms around Ianto�s waist like he couldn�t bear to let
go, face wet
with tears
buried in his neck. The
Doctor sat too,
perching on the edge of a third stool, and when Jack
looked up, he saw
him mouth
the words, �Thank you�. �You revived him.�
Jack stated, quietly assured. �What?�
Ianto was
nodding. �But... I remember him
dying....� The Doctor shook his head.
�You won�t. You�re
so far away,
you�re catching up but the more time you spend with
him, give it a
couple of
days, you�ll forget. You�ll
remember him
vanishing when you went to shout at the soldiers about
hazmat suits and
oxygen. You�ll remember
shooting at the
Shilieonn�s � the 456�s - atmospheric container. You�ll
remember dying and waking alone, Gwen
telling you they haven�t found Ianto�s body yet. Because
I went back and I took him. I
couldn�t do
anything else. It had
already happened so
I had to be
careful not to change anything that would put at risk
what you did to
save the
children. I�m sorry,
Jack, I couldn�t
save Stephen.� �I took Ianto out of time.
Like I said, it�s breaking every rule but I
owed you. You saved my
life, you and Martha. You
saved... everything.�
He watched more tears gather in Jack�s eyes
like he couldn�t stop them and thought maybe this was
one of the best
things he�d
ever done. Hearing him say it
physically hurt and he saw Ianto squeeze
Jack�s arms where his hands rested, not an accusing
bone in his body;
calm and
content just to be here, further than he could ever
have imagined being
from
home but in Jack�s arms... he was the happiest he�d
been since the
Doctor had
grabbed him and in half a minute talked him into
leaving because
otherwise he
was GOING TO DIE. �You
did what you had to
do. I was certain I could
trust you to
do that under any circumstances.�
He
leaned forward. �I�ve
done worse things
in my long life, Jack. Remember
how many
lives you saved and take some time out.
Heal. Mourn. Show
Ianto some of the finer sights in the
galaxy.� He stood, took a
step and
stopped. �Come on, I�ll
drop you both
somewhere
much, much nicer than this place.� Jack�s answer was muffled. �Yes.� �Are you trying to say you
don�t love me?� �You don�t love me?� �No. Yes. I�m saying it�s not
something I would have
told you normally.� �Because it�s not something
you want to hear, is it? What
was your
answer?� �Don�t what?� �That�s what I said, �don�t�.� �Don�t?
Don�t what? Don�t
love you? Don�t die?� |