Chapter Two:
"Once more you open the door...."(3)
Michael looked around the large building and was amazed.
He had thought maybe about a
house with a garage, but he had never imagined Nicholas to
own this thing! It had once
been a warehouse, apparently, and it was located along the
docks in the old harbor area.
Similar building were all around them, old, sturdy brick
buildings with giant entry doors,
three or four stories high, though divided into only two
levels, sometimes three. There
was no traffic around here, except when a company was
removing stock from a warehouse they
owned or had rented, but since no ships came here - the
new harbor offering a wider range
of machines and better access - it was quiet.
The ground level of Nick's place was one gigantic
hangar-like garage. The floor was clean
swept as in their own garage. High above them were
smoke-colored windows and skylights,
filtering the sunlight. Some were of normal white glass
and projected spotlights. A second
floor could be accessed via a heavy load elevator and
wrought iron stairs. The floor was
only half as wide as the ground level, ending in a kind of
gallery that allowed a clear
view downstairs. A railing secured the balcony.
Michael discovered a whole array of diagnostic equipment
in one corner of the ground
level, not unlike the one he had seen in Kitt's garage or
in the Semi. There were work
areas, a small living space with a coffee machine and
refrigerator, just like at home, and
a service pit was not far away. Bonnie stood with her
mouth open, as did Justin.
The Semi had driven through the automated doors, now
neatly sitting in the middle of the
warehouse, still a lot of space to move around him. The
warehouse had the twice the length
of the truck!
Getting Kitt out of the trailer had been easier than
getting him inside. Like a nervous
horse he had almost shot out, glad to be free of the
claustrophobic environment. He now
sat in the middle of the diagnostic center, trembling,
unsure, slightly afraid of their
new environment. Justin was already checking out his side
for the equipment he would or
might need. The Semi would have to return to FLAG soon.
"Don't worry," Peter now said with his usual, broad grin,
chewing his
ever-present gum. "They won't get a peep out of me."
"You are risking your job," Bonnie pointed out.
"Oh, you know how it is with us drivers. We can always
find a job, though none as
exciting as this one." He winked.
Bonnie nodded, disturbed by all of this. She didn't mind
risking her job at FLAG. She had
changed her opinion about her employer profoundly. If
Jennifer Knight fired her, so be it.
Justin had come to the same decision. But Peter Sanders
was not part of this and though he
had volunteered, well, he could still say he had been
forced. She told him that. Sanders
shrugged. "If I run into Ms. Knight I can tell her. Let me
worry about that, okay?
You take care of Kitt."
Michael was touched by the support everyone had shown,
starting from the technicians, to
the mechanics and now the Semi driver. "Thanks," he
whispered.
Peter nodded. "Welcome."
"What about the switched-off homing beacon?" Bonnie
suddenly asked.
"Disabled for good," Nick said and joined them, playing
with a heavy,
crowbar-like tool. He smiled coldly. "We forced you,
Peter. Tell them that. We
smashed the homing beacon, took the Semi and forced you to
drive us somewhere. Karr
accessed the Semi's tracer and changed its input. You were
never here."
Sanders chuckled. "Of course not. Okay, people, hopefully
see you again." With
that he left and the Semi pulled out of the warehouse.
"He'll be okay," Nicholas said as if to calm his friends'
nerves. "Now, let
me give you a tour."
He led them up the stairs and Michael was amazed again.
The second floor was like a
miniature house. There was a cooking area, a living room,
bathroom facilities and three
separate rooms, all doubling as guest quarters if
necessary. Bonnie's eyes lit up at the
computer center decorating one wall. This was as good as
being back at FLAG! Narrow stairs
led up to another floor, a kind of attic. Nicholas
explained that it was empty. All in all
there was little personal stuff around and it fit Nick's
behavior. Never leave anything
behind someone could use.
"Geez, Nick, you own this place?" Michael asked, still
amazed.
"Yes." A brief smile. "Feel free to use whatever you want.
The computer has
normal access and requires no password. Only the sensitive
areas do and they are walled
off. Don't worry, you won't breach into anything I don't
want you to."
"Thanks for everything," Michael said, warmed by all of
this. He was still
holding Kitt close, his partner a bit too confused by all
the events to fully realize what
had happened yet.
Nicholas shook his head. "Don't thank me. I'm doing this
out of personal
reasons."
Michael grinned wryly. "Sure."
Nick shot him an annoyed look, then walked downstairs
again. Michael briefly laid an arm
around Bonnie, hugging her, the first time they could
really share a moment of privacy.
She hugged him back fiercely and they stood together,
savoring each other's company.
"How is Kitt?" she asked, voice slightly muffled.
"Confused, but calmer than expected. I think it won't
last, but at least he is away
from an environment he has started to fear."
She nodded, sighing. "I have to confess I'm glad we have
Nick," she murmured
after a while.
Michael smiled. "Me too."
"Why is he doing all of this? I mean, what have we done?"
"We are friends," he answered simply. Bonnie frowned.
"Nick separates
between friends and acquaintances, Bonnie," Michael
explained. "I think he has
changed a bit in recent months, and I believe Karr's
overall behavior towards Kitt has
something to do with that."
She nodded, remembering how Karr had immediately parked
the Stealth close to Kitt again
the moment he had been out of the Semi.
"He has changed," she said thoughtfully.
"We all have."
They walked downstairs again. Justin was taking inventory
of the high tech equipment all
around him, Nicholas had placed himself on the couch, the
PowerBook on his lap, and the
two cars were sitting silently close to them. Michael went
to his partner, opened the door
and sat down inside. Bonnie joined Justin and lost herself
in her work.
*
Justin liked the place. It was a lot like the garage back
home and he had all the tools
and parts he needed, but with one difference: here they
were on safe ground. Maybe
not neutral ground but safe. A small stereo sat on one of
the work benches and played
music. It wasn't too loud and it was a nice background
noise. Justin was currently playing
with the simulator on his laptop, testing, rearranging,
going over some things he had
wanted to do since before the test track events.
He had spent the evening talking and working on Kitt,
applying the second layer of sealant
on the car body. Kitt never reacted, but it didn't keep
Justin from talking. It was
meaningless chit-chat, but it was what they had shared in
the past. He was aware that Karr
was listening in, too, and there was no way not noticing
the imposing Stealth since it was
leaving just enough room between and himself for Justin to
move comfortably. The mechanic
understood Karr's intentions and he approved of them.
Stretching, Justin rubbed his neck and walked over to the
refrigerator, getting a can of
soda, popping it open. He looked around the silent garage,
enjoying the feel. His eyes
came to rest on the Stealth. He had repaired the damage
Karr had inflicted on himself back
at the Foundation garage but it had not been complete.
Some of the systems still needed
realigning and testing, and Karr had refused so far. He
seemed to be afraid of Dr. Barstow
getting too close and Nick didn't have all the knowledge.
Whoever normally helped him take
care of the Stealth wasn't there now, and Justin suspected
no one would come here as long
as Kitt was present too.
"Do you need anything, Karr?" he now asked into the
silence, voice soft, keeping
it down for Kitt's sake.
"No," was the brisk answer.
Well, it was more than he had gotten out of the other AI
since they had met.
"Okay." Justin smiled, not feeling the least bit offended.
He emptied the can
and decided a quick snack wouldn't be wrong either. Taking
two stairs at a time he went
upstairs.
* * *
Nick lay on the couch, staring at the ceiling. The lights
had been turned down and
night had settled outside. There was the soft sound of the
water from the harbor outside,
and sometimes a hum from the high tech stations. The day
had passed into night and Bonnie
and Justin were already fast asleep, and Michael was
spending the night inside Kitt,
totally exhausted, as was his partner. Suddenly there was
a noise. Nick was off the couch
and ready for whatever was approaching him in a flash. A
gasp could be heard and he forced
himself to relax.
"Dr. Barstow!"
Bonnie stood frozen to the spot, staring at the weapon in
Nick's hands with wide eyes.
"I .... I didn't want to startle you...." she managed.
Nick slipped the gun back. He rarely went unarmed and even
though it was hidden well, the
weapon was there. "Sorry," he apologized, rubbing his
nose. "I'm a bite
wired..."
"I can see. I just wanted something to drink....?"
He sighed and nodded, walking over to the kitchen area,
Bonnie following him. She got
herself a bottle of mineral water and a glass.
"Michael is still downstairs?"
Nicholas nodded, pouring himself some juice. "He is
sleeping, as is Kitt."
"Karr?"
"Kind of resting. I finally got him to at least partially
power down. He is on
stand-by."
Bonnie sipped at the water and regarded the dark-haired
man opposite. "Why are you
doing all this, Nick? And don't say it's something
personal!"
He met her eyes and smiled slightly. "But that's what it
is, Dr. Barstow. My reasons
are personal and all you need to know is that neither Karr
nor I will let anything happen
to any of you. If it means supporting you here, I have no
problem with that."
"You can't do it indefinitely."
"I can."
Bonnie sighed deeply. "Kitt not only needs psychological
support, Nick! He needs
servicing and parts and ...."
MacKenzie smiled again. "If you need anything, give me a
list. I told Justin already.
You will get what you need. I know you didn't finish
everything yet, that Kitt needs
recalibration and...other things. Tell me what you need,
I'll get it."
"But the costs...." she started to protest.
"Will be covered," he interrupted her.
"Nicholas MacKenzie, I don't know how to take you," she
told him.
"Just like I am, Dr. Barstow. Just like I am."
"You want to tell me that you have a million dollar
back-up?"
Nick didn't answer and Bonnie swallowed. How else would he
be able to support Karr? And
whoever it was helping him with what he couldn't do
himself. The Stealth had been designed
and built by someone else, and he was working for hire. He
had been away on occasions,
sometimes for a few hours, sometimes for days since Devon
had asked him to stay all those
months ago. Everyone had wondered, no one had asked where
he had gone. Did she even want
to know? She had seen what kind of equipment was
downstairs; and what was up here. It was
like being back at FLAG. There was nothing missing and
Nick had just told her he could get
her what she needed.
"Okay," she finally sighed. "I get the hint."
Nick smiled and walked back to the couch. She watched as
he settled down and leaned back.
Bonnie padded quietly back into her room, mind a whirl.
She was none the wiser about their
strange friend, but somehow she was a lot calmer than
before.
Nicholas watched as the door closed and smiled. He picked
up the laptop and went to his
email inbox. He deleted what he decided was trash and then
read through various offers. He
knew he had enough work here, but maybe he might need
something or someone soon. Finally
he stored what he needed and then did a routine check on
his bank accounts. He was pleased
with the numbers scrolling past. Nick set the laptop to
start a certain search of FLAGNet
records and logs, and then locked the laptop. He debated
whether to get up and to his bed,
then shrugged and simply curled up on the couch as he was.
He was asleep a few minutes
later.
* * *
Dawn was still hours away when Nick awoke. His laptop was
flashing at him that the
search he had begun was now complete, and the results
tabulated. He brewed himself some
fresh coffee before facing what the computer had to tell
him. Karr was still parked up
next to his brother, nose pressed gently to Kitt's fender.
He had woken with Nick, but was
keeping quiet, resting. Nick typed his password into the
laptop and hit return, watching
as the search results on the Test Plan access logs
scrolled into view. They were standard
accesses - Jennifer as the file's creator, a few
technicians presumably needing the data
to set up the test harnesses and one other. The time was
logged at 14:06, the date was two
days ago. Nick swore silently and stood, tapping Karr's
hood as he passed the Stealth.
Karr reversed and turned, remaining in silent mode as he
had taken to doing around Kitt.
They got outside before Nick spoke.
"Kitt knows what's in those test plans, he accessed them
that afternoon, at about the
time they locked him into the freezer."
"He knew what was coming." Karr hesitated. "Why did he not
run?"
Nick thought about that for a moment. "Because he trusted
them. He didn't believe
what he read. How could he? Devon was there when he was
born. How could he doubt the
actions of someone he's known and trusted from his first
moment?"
"I did."
Nick felt the strained emotions flowing through the link,
despite Karr's belated efforts
to drop a block in place. Nick climbed into the car,
touching the dash gently as he sat
back in the plush seat. "Kitt's different. The people that
hurt him are all he's ever
known. He's lived so long with them, they've looked after
him, repaired him when things
have gone wrong, overhauled the car and upgraded hardware
and software. They're his
support system and now they're gone."
"Not all of them."
Nick sighed. "But can you understand what he's so scared
of? He considers himself to
be Foundation owned. Without the backing of FLAG, where
will his support come from?"
"Michael Knight would see that he was cared for." Nicholas
nodded. "I find
it difficult to understand how they became so close
without the implant. If it hadn't been
for my pre-installed link to you, I would always have
been... alone."
Nick smiled at the possessive, thankful wave that he felt
from the implant. Karr trying to
tell him what he was having difficulty putting into words.
"They grew close as people usually do. They shared
experiences, over a long time,
good and bad. They developed a friendship and off that
friendship Kitt grew into what he
had become. I'm not sure whether the implant has helped or
not."
"Never doubt that it has." Karr's certainty surprised
Nick. "If it were not
for the link, Kitt would have ceased to function by now.
He would have died."
Nick sat forward, touching his fingers to the edge of the
futuristic dash. "You would
have let him go?" His words were not an accusation.
He still did not completely
know how strong the link between Kitt and Karr was;
something was happening to his partner
that he wanted to understand.
"I would not be able to stop it. Only Michael Knight's...
presence with Kitt stops
him from falling too far."
"Would you miss him?" It was a quiet, prying question,
Nick knew. But he wanted
to know.
"I..." Karr stopped. "I would not want to see this
betrayal lead to an
innocent death."
Nick smiled gently. "So you would miss him."
"If Kitt ceased to exist, it would be quiet. I would be
unique. I do not wish to
experience that feeling ever again."
Nick sat back, wrapping his fingers around the base of the
steering wheel and sending
waves of pride and warmth through the implant. For a while
they sat together in silence, a
rare moment spent actually enjoying each others' company,
feeling close to one another. At
least neither would ever be alone. "He's always been with
you, hasn't he?"
"Yes."
"Why haven't you ever acknowledged him before?"
"Because he has never needed me before. Because he would
have come after me if he
believed I was still alive."
"Maybe. Have you ever considered that he needed you as
much as you needed him?"
Immediately, Karr went on the defensive. "I do not need
him. I have never needed him.
And he did not need me before he was betrayed by those he
trusted. He is desperate now,
reaching for anything he can access without having to face
the real world again."
Nick carefully separated the two issues in Karr's
statement, storing the second away in
his mind, picking up on the first. "If you didn't need
him, why keep the private
channel open all this time? Why not close it down,
deactivate it, or ask me to?" Or
even tell me about it?
Karr took a while to answer. "I am used to his echoes
being there. He was never aware
of me unless I was threatening him. Then he attacked me."
"You were threatening Michael. And Bonnie." Nick did not
mention Devon's name,
knowing how it angered his partner. "You know he would
protect them at all costs. I
don't think he has been aware of the private channel
between the two of you, not until
now. Not in its real sense."
"He is frightened of me."
"No. Not anymore. He was, I think. But again, he developed
with Michael. Michael, and
the others around him were frightened of you. You were
frightened of you when I found
you." Karr fell silent, mumbling through the link, making
Nick smile. Closing his
eyes for a moment, he murmured in reply, "Face it Karr,
you're mellowing."
* * *
Deep in his mind, Kitt's presence was calm, sleeping.
Michael was curled gently around
his friend, holding him in reassurance. They had been like
that for sometime, and Michael
knew that it would not be long before the ongoing circle
of fear swamped Kitt with another
nightmare, a bad dream that would wake the presence,
sending him reeling in terror. And
Michael would be there, to comfort and soothe. Nick had
sat in with Kitt through the last
part of the journey here; Karr following the Semi,
protecting his brother. Nick had not
wanted to think of the consequences if Jennifer or Devon
had chosen to attempt to stop the
Semi from leaving with the Knight Industries Two Thousand
on board. Although they had only
overheard Karr's end of the conversation between he and
the other AI, when Kitt had
freaked after being put back in the TransAm, Nick at least
understood that Karr had sworn
he would not allow anyone to harm his brother again. Nick
knew Karr meant that, and would
not hesitate to make good on his promise. Even before
that, Jennifer had had a taste of
Karr's rapidly growing devotion to the task of protecting
his brother.
Michael had had time to sleep in peace while the Semi was
on the move. Kitt had slept for
most of the journey; Michael recognized the state as the
AI's way of not having to face
the terror and agony that his life had suddenly become. It
had taken time to reassure him
that this new location would provide them with safety and
distance from everything that
Kitt feared. Persuading Kitt to enter the Semi had not
been easy. Michael experienced
every shiver of claustrophobia from his partner through
the implant, and had tried to send
back warmth and reassurance each step of the way. Finally,
with Michael sitting in the
car, hugging the steering wheel, touching the internal
sensor with calming strokes, with
his partner's mental embrace closed tightly, securely
around him through the link, Kitt
had allowed the ramp to be raised behind him. Part of
Kitt's 'obedience' in entering the
Semi felt to Michael as if it was born out of a desperate
feeling of despair and
hopelessness. That had frightened him a little. He so
wanted to feel Kitt's strength
return, the infusion of optimism that Kitt always gave
him. But there was no hint of that
in Kitt's current projections. When Michael thought of the
changes wrought in his
partner's character, he simply became enraged, and that
was something Nick had warned him
about. Kitt could feed off the anger that would flow to
him through the link, and that
would simply make the situation worse. And so Michael had
to be careful, and he tried
tirelessly to channel all his energies into helping Kitt
recover from his ordeal.
The nightmares were not always the same, and this one came
on slowly, starting as a dark
dream, becoming terrifying over a period of time. Michael
could feel it change in tone,
experiencing only feelings and emotions, not images,
through Kitt's unrestricted
projections. He tightened his embrace around his partner.
Before, when he had known Kitt's
dreams were changing, Michael would use a method Nick had
taught him to send a sudden,
surprising jolt through the implant; Kitt would wake
before the nightmares could take
hold. But this time Michael wanted Kitt to reach a point
that he hoped, upon waking, he
would be upset enough to talk, to spill everything and
finally tell him what had happened,
whether anything had been said that would explain this to
them. It had been partially
Nick's idea, being as Kitt wasn't talking to them by any
other means. Michael hated
sitting back and allowing his friend to go through all the
pain again, after he had been
trapped in this vicious circle for so long. But he
understood Nick's reasoning. If they
could find out what had happened maybe they could help
slightly more than they had been
doing.
Through the deep link formed between them, Kitt started to
whimper. Michael held on,
soothing, unable to witness his partner's suffering and
not do something to help alleviate
his fear. The whimpers became cries, sparks of pain as
Kitt's ordeal was replayed to him
with the perfect clarity of a computer's memory. A sob
rose from him, followed quickly by
a scream that woke him, shaking and terrified, into
Michael's embrace. Kitt searched
desperately for his partner's touch, and found it: lulling
strokes that he attempted to
lean into, needing to be closer. Deep in his CPU, in the
private place only he, and now
Michael, had ever been, Michael's presence was strong and
bright, wrapped around him,
offering safety and refuge.
//sorry//
Michael winced. Kitt was trying to apologize for the
terrible experiences he knew he was
projecting back to his driver. //do not apologize never
apologize it's okay//
//hurt//
//I know//
//why?//
//I don't know I'm sorry//
//whywhywhywhy?//
Michael eased Kitt back down into his embrace, soothing
him again. //please tell me//
//hurt//
//tell me what they did//
//hurt hurthurthurthurthurt//
Michael could feel himself aching for his partner, and
that sorrow passed down the link.
Kitt reflected it back at him.
//broken//
Confused, Michael questioned him silently.
//broken
weaknesses too many
weaknesses useless
broken//
This was new. This was something more than the usual
'hurt' and 'why'. He knew he needed
to think about what Kitt was telling him, but linked this
deeply almost everything he
thought passed through to Kitt, and Michael did not want
to upset his partner any more
than he had to. He simply listened, remembering for later,
when Kitt was simply a
presence, rather than almost an entity. Linked this deeply
it was so easy to hold Kitt, to
touch the AI with his mind, it was almost a physical
embrace. Usually, warmth projected
would be like a hug, something that could always make him
smile.
//broken// Kitt repeated the word wretchedly.
//no you'll be okay now//
//return not finished//
//no! they won't return I won't let them touch you again,
Kitt, I promise you're safe
here//
//not finished//
//it's over, Kitt. I'm here now Karr's here. They won't
touch you again//
That seemed to calm him. Slowly, he settled back,
surrounded by Michael's gentle hold,
cushioned against Michael's soothing presence.
* * *
Michael accepted the mug of coffee gratefully from
Nicholas and sank back into the
corner of the couch. Kitt was parked close so that Michael
could touch the hood if he
reached out. Not too far behind him, Karr was sitting
silently watching and still
protecting. Outside, the sun was starting to rise; it
would strain to warm the day through
the cold haze that had already set in.
"He doesn't know why they did it, Nick." Michael told the
other operative.
"He can only tell me what he's feeling."
"That he's been hurt and he's been betrayed."
"Yeah. But there was something else.... He kept saying
'broken' and something like,
'too many weaknesses'."
Nick though for a moment. "Karr confirmed what I guessed
by reading the notes
scribbled on the test reports. The plans I found on
FLAGNet were the actual ones used.
They were using extremes. Cold, and heat. But I don't
think that's what they were
testing." He turned to look at Michael. "I don't think
Jennifer was testing at
all."
Michael gazed at him, tired but wide awake. He was about
to question Nick's statement when
Karr spoke, a warning that was simply Nick's name. Both
men looked up, and then the full
force of what was happening hit Michael like an axe
through the brain. He bit down on a
yell, falling back against the couch as Nick made a
successful grab for the mug of hot
coffee in his fingers.
"Karr, what's happening?"
"Flashback." It was all Karr could get out before turning
his full attention to
the fragile link between himself and Kitt.
Michael fought desperately to stay afloat as Kitt's
presence erupted in his mind. This
wasn't like previous nightmares. This was for real. This
was what he had felt when he had
been back in the forest, when it had all started. Agony
flared within him and he struggled
to stay conscious, not to let go of his tenuous hold on
his partner. Next to him, Nick was
trying to calm him, trying to give him commands he could
follow, reminding him what he had
been taught. But Michael could hear only the screams of
himself and his partner as the
searing pain and blinding light ravaged his mind.
<_Kitt Kitt!
<_ Fire!Firefirefirefirefirefire
<_No, it's not real. Let it go.
<_Shell gone! Fire burning! No protection! Help me help
me help me help me
<_It's not real. Let it go!
<_Help me help me burning up help me please make it
stop make it stop make it stop
As Kitt's terrified chant continued, Karr stifled his own
panic and fear of what was
happening, and reached for his brother. Michael's own hold
had slipped as he had become
lost in the piercing agony raging in his mind. Kitt was
flailing in fright, reliving
literally the moment the flames had taken hold, the moment
he had realized that the
chemical they had frozen him with and the subsequent
impact with the stone wall had caused
a break down in the molecular bonded shell and he was
unprotected, unable to cope with the
excruciating heat being produced by whatever chemical they
had drenched him in when he had
reached what he had thought to be the safety of the track.
He panicked, freaking as he
felt parts of himself start to melt, the nightmare pain as
the high strength plastic
became liquid, flowing over the sides of the car and over
the hood, scorching as they
went. He shut down all outboard sensors, and realized in
abject horror that the flames
were licking at him inside in the car, inside the engine
compartment, getting closer and
closer to his CPU, burning, torturing....
Kitt screamed. This time his own voice modulator threw the
sound across the warehouse, an
uncensored peek into his mental state.
Nick looked from Michael to Karr, and touched the implant
deep in his mind. Karr
reached out. He very carefully touched Kitt, wrapping him
in a hesitant, awkward embrace,
and pulling. The strange touch, almost harsh, the rough,
alien presence in what had once
been a private place, the feeling of suddenly being
surrounded by something that wasn't
quite love, but was not too far from it, all combined to
break the hold of Kitt's
agonizing flashback, and to bring him out of it, shaking
and scared.
Michael collapsed forwards, his hands going out, reaching
for the silky black skin of
his partner, palms going flat on the hood. Shivers that
Michael could feel in his mind
were passing through the car, uncontrollable and
unstoppable. But even that was an amazing
relief from the hell he had been released from. He evened
out his breathing, for a moment
blanking his mind.
The moment Kitt's screaming stopped, Karr backed off,
knowing his sudden intrusion into
a place only one other had ever been had jolted Kitt
enough to do what had to be done. But
it had also made Kitt acutely aware of Karr's ability to
do this now, and while no longer
frightening, that revelation was unsettling to both of
them. The AI was shaking badly, and
Karr could not sense Knight's presence anywhere around
them.
<_Kitt. You are safe
//<_Michael?
His tone was uncertain, fearful of what had just taken
place. Where was he? What was
happening to him? //<_Michael?! Please....
<_Michael Knight will be with you soon. You gave him a
shock, that is all. You must
settle now.
//<_No..... Michael.....
<_Kitt....
//<_Michael.....
Karr could again feel Kitt's growing agitation. The other
AI was just a frightened mess,
he needed his partner, the one he was linked to by neuro
implant. Whatever this link that
was building up between him and his brother, it wasn't
nearly enough yet, and Kitt just
didn't have the total unquestioning faith in him that he
had in his driver. Suddenly,
Michael was there, gently taking Kitt into his arms,
holding him, embracing him, rocking
him softly, murmuring to him reassurances that meant
nothing yet were everything for Kitt
- a lifeline. Karr started to pull back, but surprisingly
Kitt reached for him from the
safety of Michael's arms.
<_Karr
<_Michael Knight is with you now
<_Don't leave
<_I will not go far
The other presence at Kitt's end of the link sent a gentle
shudder through Michael's mind,
down his spine, but he was careful not to react. Kitt's
very stability depended on him
now, only with Michael there could he begin to come back
to them, to return to being even
a shadow of what he had been only a few days ago.
//sleep now//
There was a murmur of thanks, and then peace. Michael
doubted Kitt even knew where he was
yet. With no external input save for the implant and his
connection to Karr, it would be
difficult for him to realize that they'd moved him. But he
would, soon, when he surfaced
above the place the nightmares held him.
Karr retreated, leaving Kitt in Michael's warm presence
and returning to where he knew. He
instantly felt Nicholas probing their link for him, and he
sent over a wave of reassurance
and some exhaustion.
Nick turned his attention to Michael for a moment. The
other man was still leaning
forward, now trying to stand. Nick helped him up and
around his car until he could sink in
through the open door to the driver's seat. Once there,
Michael pulled it forward and
wrapped his arms around the steering wheel, touching the
sensor, resting his head on his
arms.
Nick waited for a long while before murmuring, "Is he
asleep?" Michael nodded
against the wheel. "Then go upstairs. You ought to sleep
properly. This is going to
start draining you, and it isn't going to get any better
anytime soon. Okay?"
Michael nodded again. "Just give me a minute, and I'll go.
Promise."
"Okay." Nick left Michael and Kitt alone for a while, and
followed to where Karr
had gone, through the open warehouse doors just outside.
"We have to end this,"
Nick murmured as he sat up on the Stealth's warm hood.
"You can't just end it," Karr replied, his voice somewhere
between exhaustion
and regret. "The nightmares remain, even when the person
responsible ceases to exist.
Nothing changes. The pain fades. That is all."
It sounded like Karr was talking to himself, about
himself, and Nick knew he did. As much
as his partner had tried to erase those who had inflicted
so much pain onto him, he had
never succeeded, and Wilton Knight's passing had not
relieved him of his memories, of what
had been done to him. On the contrary: he had hated more.
It had taken a long time and
finally a partnership with a human to make him accept that
this could not be changed, and
he was still suffering.
"We have to do something," Nick said softly.
"Kitt's safety must be guaranteed if he is ever to return
home."
Nicholas nodded, knowing Karr was right and unsure of how
to accomplish that.
* * *
Kitt was trapped in a world of dark shadows, terrifying
memories, horror lurking behind
every thought and the empty cold blackness that had been
creeping through his CPU ever
since ... since..... He shied away from the thought, but
this brief brush had been enough
to send a torrent of vicious little creature called
'memories' hurtling his way. Their
claws hurt as they lodged themselves deep into his CPU,
their teeth gnawed away at his
last remaining shield, at his hope, at the warmth Michael
was projecting ceaselessly. But
even that warmth was not enough to chase the ice away that
had started to coat every inch
inside of him. Black ice. Freezing. Corrosive like acid.
Wherever he turned he was
attacked by something even more vicious and vile,
something more evil and threatening.
Kitt whimpered softly, reaching for Michael, feeling his
partner's nearness but also his
exhaustion. Michael was close to a total breakdown because
he had spent almost every
minute with Kitt, holding him, being there, murmuring
reassurance. Still, the darkness was
winning, was starting to claim large portion of Kitt's
mind, eating away at him. Leaving
him smaller and smaller. Filling the emptiness with the
horror and terror, the nightmares
and black dreams.
Dreams of eternal ice coating his circuits, breaking him.
Dreams of hellish fires blazing over his unprotected body,
melting even the most durable
of his parts.
And he died.
Kitt felt himself die over and over again, in small
pieces, one by one. One small death
after another, until there was nothing but the fragile
part clinging to the neuro implant
link left. And even that was ridden by a disease called
death. The more he clung to the
link, the worse it got. Death was starting to creep along
the fine line to his partner, to
Michael. Killing him in turn.... destroying everyone.
Kitt screamed, recoiling in shock. He moved back to the
farthest corner of his mind,
keening softly, trying not to come too close to Michael.
His driver was asleep and right
now Kitt's transmissions were nothing but faint echoes,
mainly because he was not actively
touching the sleeping presence.
He sat there for a while, shaking, lost and alone, afraid
but too terrified to move. His
mind whirled, trying to find a way out of the darkness,
back into the light that was
Michael Knight, but no solution came. Only dark
suggestions of how he could end it too.
Save Michael the pain.
The nightmares.
The horror.
He was hurting Michael because he was linked to him; he
was hurting everyone.
He could end it.
Forever.
He knew he could.
Kitt whimpered again, shaking badly but unwilling to seek
out the reassurance he had
gotten every time this had struck before. This time he
wouldn't need it. He ran a scan of
his systems and found his body fully operational, but his
way was blocked by the Stealth.
It too had been a reassuring presence once, but not it was
a danger; an obstacle; keeping
him trapped where he was. He wasn't strong enough to shove
his way past him.
Another way. There had to be another way.
And there was.
Michael was asleep; not peacefully, but asleep. He turned
restlessly twice but each
time he never woke past the stage of dreamy remembrance
before falling asleep once more.
The neuro implant was quiet and if he had been awake he
would have noticed how eerily
silent it was. So he was asleep and the effects were
trickling into his mind by and by.
Justin was the first to notice the power drain. He had
just done a routine check on the
data transmitting from the diagnostic station and noticed
that Kitt was drawing abnormally
excessive energy into his systems. He was still connected
to an outside feed so as not to
strain his systems and right now a lot was simply being
sucked inside. Too
much. Justin checked again, noting in alarm how the
figures were climbing, how the
strain on the delicate circuitry was building.
He muttered softly and tried to disconnect, but his
commands were counteracted and the
increase in feed rate told him it had been done
deliberately. Something or someone was
drawing the energy in, deliberately overloading the CPU.
If this continued at the same
rate....
"Oh, shit!" he cursed. "No! Kitt!"
Justin hit the emergency shut down button for the
diagnostic center, aware it would take
them some hours to reboot the system, but right now it was
the farthest problem from his
mind.
But it was already too late.
He smelled the sharp ozone-like odor of frying chips.
"KITT!"
Karr was startled out of his recharge by a feeling he
found hard to describe, something
like a foreboding, deep dread of what was about to happen.
Puzzled he first probed the
link to Nicholas and found his driver deeply immersed in
an Internet research upstairs.
A sharp spike hit his peripheral shields and he whirled
around. This had come through the
link to Kitt!
<_Kitt?
A faint sizzling wormed its way across the distance,
followed by crackling and ....
something else.
<_Kitt?!
And then he heard Justin's curse, witnessed his frantic
attempt to disconnect Kitt from
his outside feed, and Karr felt everything inside of him
grow cold.
<_NO!! he roared, lunging across the virtual link.
He landed in a nightmare of overloading systems, of
melting circuits, of programs erasing
themselves. He fought past swamps of dread, dark pools of
hopelessness, and was slapped
straight in the face by the most terrible word he could
think of right now.
Suicide.
Kitt was killing himself!
Programs were erased by the strong electrical currents
sparking all around him. Some of
them brushed extremely close and Karr winced in pain. He
discovered a kind of seal strong
in place where he had once suspected the neuro implant
link was going. Michael Knight.
<_Kitt? What are you doing? Stop!!
Whimpers answered him and he thought he heard things like
'Only way' and 'Give up'.
<_No! he hissed. <_Don't give up! Stop this madness,
Kitt! Stop it!!
'.....Release....' The word floated past him and was drawn
into the black hole opening up,
Kitt's hopelessness and desperation given form.
<_It won't be release!
There was no getting through. Karr grabbed for his brother
but Kitt was slipping past and
the badly unstable circuits all around him made every move
hell.
<Nick!> he cried in desperation.
His partner was already on his way downstairs, racing
toward where small fires were now
licking out of the engine compartment of the black
TransAm.
There was no sound audible outside; Kitt was doing this in
total silence!
'.....Should have died like this the first time....'
Karr felt his desperation grow in leaps. <_No! You have
to live!
'.....No....'
"Kitt!"
Michael was confused, waking to a feeling of something
being terribly wrong but being
unable to put his finger on it. He sat up, blinking,
trying to examine the strange warning
tingle he felt. The door burst open and the light from
outside filtered in. He squinted
automatically.
"Michael, it's Kitt!"
Somehow that was all he needed to hear. He was out of the
room and past Nicholas before
his mind could tell him he was only dressed in his pajama
shorts. He didn't care. What he
saw from the top of the stairs nearly made him scream.
Kitt's hood was open.
His engine compartment covered with the fire-extinguishing
foam.
The race track. Traces of foam. Traces of fire. Kitt
screaming
But this time there were no screams. His mind was so
eerily silent....
"//Kitt//!" he cried, both out loud and through the link.
He got no answer. Justin was frantically trying to do
something to stop the chain reaction
apparently still going inside the car, but a yelp told
Michael that electrical charges
were still being emitted.
"Kitt, no!" he moaned, running over to where his partner
sat, hood open, the
smell of burned metal and wire hanging in the air. He
tried to find the link, open it, but
there was nothing. It was like walking against a mental
wall!
//KITT!!!//
Karr knew there was only one way and that it would be
painful for all of them, even for
him. He reached for Nick, wanting to prepare him, and
through him Michael Knight, for what
he was about to do.
<I'm cutting the block>
<Ready> was Nick's answer and he felt his partner
steel himself. Karr erected some
blocks of his own, then he lashed at the sealing.
It cracked.
He lashed out again.
It splintered into splintered pieces.
Michael barely had any time to register what Nick was
telling him was about to happen
before it hit him. His mind was assaulted by desperation,
by suicidal tendencies so strong
they had taken over the rational mind, by a wish to die,
by hopelessness and grief. It all
cascaded down on him, drowning him, taking him with it as
it flowed all around him like
white water.
He didn't even have time to scream, a simple, faint gasp
escaping his lips. And amidst the
torrents he found the small, frightened and desperate
entity that was Kitt. He was a tiny
capsule of flickering light, curled in on himself, crying
softly, lashing at everything
that came too close, breaking apart with every move.
Michael instinctively reached for his
partner, wrapped his whole being around that tiny light,
sending out warmth, reassurance,
his very essence.
//Shhhh.....Shhhh....Kitt I'm here//
//go away leave me// Kitt cried weakly.
//no I won't let you go partner
never//
Kitt struggled to get out of the gentle embrace and
Michael tightened his hold, intent on
never letting him slip past. //why?// he asked. //why??//
//end it end the pain .. finish it//
//No! Kitt no!!//
//end it// Kitt repeated, sounding dejected, forlorn,
miserable. //No more pain no more
nightmares//
Michael cried softly. //don't leave me Kitt//
Kitt whimpered. //no strength//
//you are strong I'm your strength you are mine don't
leave me!!// he begged, wrapping
himself even tighter around the dwindling presence. //Kitt
no!! don't leave me
alone can't go on
alone need you!// He opened up
completely, drawing Kitt into himself, totally unaware of
the real world, only his
partner, only the small frightened presence.
Nick was just fast enough to catch Michael as he crashed
to the floor. His body was
trembling, twitching erratically. He tried to make Michael
as comfortable as possible
where he lay, simply drawing down a blanket to keep him
warm. All the time his mind was
pulsing and vibrating with echoes of Karr's experiences.
His partner was still inside
Kitt's CPU, struggling against an overwhelming flood of
suicidal emotions. Nick gasped
sharply as something trickled past and he had to hold on
to the couch not to lose his
balance. He didn't dare to access the implant, aware that
it would most likely let him
follow Michael's fate. Nicholas inhaled deeply, trying to
get his bearings. Stumbling to
his feet he looked over to Kitt's body. Justin was still
working frantically to bleed off
the excess energy. Bonnie had joined him from somewhere.
He hadn't even seen her coming,
and she had not asked too many question, simple dove in.
The portable diagnostic laptop was flipped open and
Bonnie's face drained of all color
when the first data streamed in.
"Oh my God!" was all she managed.
//why Kitt? why? tell me why?// Michael probed, never
letting Kitt go.
Kitt was trembling in his embrace, crying softly, clinging
to his partner. //couldn't go
on too much nothing
else nightmares too
strong//
Michael cried too, silently, tears streaming over his
face. The horror of what had
happened to Kitt had destroyed his last shields, his last
hold, and he had given in to his
fear, the terror lurking behind every corner.
//I'm here always for you//
//hurting you//
//no// he soothed. //no you are not hurting me you are my
friend I'm here for you//
Kitt started to cry again, this time with relief, shame
and a hard to define emotion.
//sorry sorrysorrysorry//
//It's okay//
//not okay not okay to
hurt not friends//
Michael stroked him gently, whispering to Kitt. //you are
not hurting me//
He lost himself in the implant world, holding his partner
safe.
Karr retreated out of the black abyss of pain and
hopelessness, breaking free with an
immense effort. He stumbled, crying out as he was flung
out of Kitt's mangled CPU and home
into his own, well-known environment. A sob escaped him
and he felt how he was shaking.
Someone touched him and he flinched away before he
realized it was Nick. Everything around
him was oversensitized, burning with the cold and the fire
that had echoed across the link
to Kitt.
<Nick?!>
Nick's presence wrapped itself around his self, warming
him. He clung to his partner just
like Kitt was now clinging to Knight. Nick didn't say a
word, simply let him hold on.
"Why?" Karr asked after some time. "Why did he do it?"
Suicide was a concept he couldn't understand; ending one's
life was not anything he had
ever thought about. In former times his program of
self-preservation had dominated him,
had stopped every thought of hurting himself in its track.
Now, while that program was
still strong in his mind, he also had something worth
living, worth fighting..... worth
changing for.
Nicholas sighed softly, his presence shifting but
never losing in intensity.
"He gave in to the nightmares," he finally muttered and
curled his fingers
around the sensor.
Karr shivered. "He is so much stronger than this.... Why?"
he whispered.
"Even the strongest can break, partner. Everything Kitt
knew, everything he ever
loved and trusted, was viciously destroyed in one move. He
is surrounded by nightmares, by
pain.... he wanted it to stop."
"It is the wrong way!" Karr snarled.
Nicholas had to agree, but for Kitt it had been the only
way he had seen. Kitt and Karr
were totally different in this regard, and Karr had
immense difficulties dealing with
suicide.
"Do you still have contact to him?"
"Yes. But he and his driver need to be left alone."
MacKenzie smiled. "I know." His eyes fell on the almost
lifeless figure of
Michael Knight, wrapped up in the blanket, totally
unresponsive. This had been a major
set-back and a development neither had expected. He sighed
deeply, simply buried himself
in the neuro link, something he rarely ever did with such
an intensity, and stayed with
Karr. There was nothing else he could do anyway.
Michael woke, slightly distracted, and found his body
protesting his every move. He was
wrapped up in a blanket, a pillow under his head, but he
was lying on the hard garage
floor. He sat up with a barely suppressed groan and
discovered he was not alone. Bonnie
was sleeping behind him on the couch, Justin had nodded
off in a chair, his body slumping
over the desk - he would have one hell of a cramp - and
Nicholas .... well, Nick was up
and about. Now he walked over to Michael and cast him a
questioning look as he helped the
taller man to stand without falling. Michael rubbed his
aching head and rotated his stiff
shoulders. His eyes fell on Kitt - hood open, support
cable sneaking out, traces of the
engine fire still visible - and he winced.
"I'm okay," he mumbled.
Nick rolled his eyes, telling him that was not exactly
what others would believe, and
helped him over to Kitt, sitting him down on the driver's
seat, still wrapped in the
blanket.
"How is he?" MacKenzie then wanted to know.
"Asleep. Finally." Michael rested his throbbing head on
the head-rest of the
seat. "Nick.... he wanted to kill himself....." Horror and
pain swung in his
voice and when he looked into his friend's eyes, he
discovered Nick knew all about it.
"Karr told me. Is he stable now?"
Kitt was far from stable, but Michael understood in what
sense of the word Nick had meant
it. He nodded slightly.
"He's with me," he murmured. "I won't let him go. Ever."
Nick nodded. "I'll get you a coffee and then you should
freshen up a bit."
Michael gave a vague nod and sought out his partner's
presence, for now calm and resting
but still haunted. He stroked him gently in his sleep,
feeling Kitt subconsciously reach
out and seek reassurance; reassurance Michael was only to
ready to give.
//not alone 'm
here never
doubt you aren't alone//
//sorry sorry only way//
Michael closed his eyes and let Kitt merge with him again.
//always another
way I will help// Kitt kept mumbling
apologies, horrified by his own
action now, but he quieted down, still shaking badly.
Karr had mostly retreated out of the private space around
Kitt and had settled back to
watch. The concept of suicide was still something he
couldn't even start to comprehend,
but it had happened. Kitt had tried to take his life. And
they all had to deal with it.
Whispers came over the private channel, followed by soft
whimpering through the link. Kitt
was reaching for support as he turned restlessly all of a
sudden, and Karr found himself
only too willing to step forward and calm him down again.
Michael Knight was hovering
close to his partner and Karr made his intrusion as quick
and secretive as possible. He
caught a strand of Kitt's self and gently wrapped part of
himself around it.
<_Sleep
A mutter answered him.
<_It will be okay, he promised. <_Trust me.
Kitt turned and Karr flinched under the emotions now
coming his way. He had not expected
to get a reaction like that. Kitt had started to trust him
and though it was a reason to
feel joy and relief, it was also a reason to worry for
him. Kitt shouldn't trust him that
quickly! He should keep his doubt and fear. Trusting Karr
meant trusting the enemy that
had once tried to destroy Kitt and his driver.
<_Friend, Kitt whispered, hope and desperation in his
voice.
<_Yes, Karr managed. <_I'm your friend.
His brother curled up again, far from his old self, but
emitting waves of reoccurring
hope. Karr withdrew, confused and shaken.
*
Nicholas regarded the piece of pizza without much
enthusiasm. He had stopped feeling
hungry when the whole mess had started and he shared this
lessening of appetite with
Michael, who was force-fed by Bonnie on a daily basis.
Finally he chewed on the last
triangle of pizza, staring at the distant wall, eyes
unfocused. Karr resided partly in his
mind, a soft pressure, needing as much reassurance as Nick
needed his partner's silent
presence. Karr was so shaken by it all, he had retreated,
unable to accept for now.
Michael was with Kitt, constantly present now, afraid to
leave Kitt physically alone for
more than a bathroom run. Kitt had not reacted to anything
since his suicide attempt, but
he was more stable after it than anybody could have hoped
for. The attempt had been borne
out of desperation, panic and loneliness, feeling
everything press in around him. It had
been like a short-circuit reaction. Bonnie and Justin had
repaired most of the major
damage and they would start on the finer work as soon as
possible.
Nick threw the pizza box away and tiredly walked over to
the living space area on the
upper floor. Exhaustion hit him and he stumbled.
"Karr," he murmured. "Damnit...."
He turned and went downstairs again.
Karr was exhausted. His systems needed a rest, his
interface with the Stealth was
hurting and he was projecting through the implant. Nick
was not saying anything, but Karr
knew he was influencing him. The last two days had been
too much for his CPU, and Kitt's
attempt to kill himself had topped it all. Echoes of
Kitt's pain came in, stinging through
the already over-sensitized link to his brother, igniting
vicious memories of what had
happened this afternoon. Karr didn't dare to shut down
because he might lose his
connection to Kitt, miss any changes for the better or
worse. He rather relived the
nightmares along with Kitt.
"Sleep," a soft voice suddenly said, startling him.
"Can't," he whispered, wincing at the burning sensation
the implant now evoked.
"This is hurting you, partner. And me. Kitt is with
Michael and resting, so follow
his example and get some much-needed rest. It won't help
if you break down too," Nick
told him with a soft smile.
"I will not break down," Karr announced indignantly. "I
can take it."
"Not for much longer. Your body might be close to
indestructible, but not your mind.
Karr, power down your systems. Sleep. And let Dr. Barstow
take a look at the circuits
tomorrow."
Anger flooded him. "She won't touch me!" Karr hissed but
with half his usual
harshness.
"Your systems have been strained to the max!"
"As have Kitt's!"
"He gets servicing, partner," Nick pointed out.
Karr growled something. MacKenzie unconsciously started to
rub the roof, sighing.
"Will you please listen to reason? I know you are
experiencing what Kitt goes
through, and even if you are not going through it every
time with the same intensity, you
have your share. The link will stay. It won't shut down
too." He leaned closer.
"He still feels you and you feel him."
The Stealth was silent for a long time.
"And I will be here," Nick added almost inaudibly. "I will
guard you. Trust
me."
"I do," Karr murmured softly. After a while he added, "I
will go into
recharge. For a while."
Relief flooded Nick's features. Karr had been leaking
exhaustion ever since Kitt and
Michael had both quieted down. One after another Karr's
systems powered down and he
slipped into a recharge mode. Nick stayed for a few more
minutes, feeling his partner's
presence even out into the usual background residence.
Then he walked up the iron stairs
to his living room.
*
The only thing they understood was that it was going to
take time to accept and move on
from what had happened. Bonnie leaned over the rail, tears
stinging her eyes as her gaze
wandered across the body of her baby. Only a few days ago,
Kitt had been working happily
by her side, missing Michael but in constant contact with
him. Bonnie had almost been
aware of the link through Kitt's sudden stillness and
silence whenever he was with Michael
any deeper than his usual presence in the back of his
mind. Now there was nothing but that
eerie quiet hanging over the car. She knew Michael had
been with Kitt mentally almost
constantly since the tests, more so in the last few hours.
She briefly mused how long he
could go before breaking down.
A single tear slipped over her cheek, and the moment that
one broke free, Bonnie started
to cry. None of this should have been happening. Kitt and
Michael should probably be on
vacation somewhere, as Devon had promised them; if Devon
would have kept that promise, of
course. She thought about him, still not quite believing
that he could have done what they
knew he had done. She thought about the life they had
lost, the safety of their home had
once provided, now somewhere that frightened them all. And
she thought about Kitt. He had
been programmed to respect all life, he considered all
life to be special and worth
preserving, it was a code he lived by, one that defined
him. How scared then must he be,
how ravaged must his soul be to propel him toward that
particular action; to attempt to
end his own life. He knew how quiet it was, how lonely he
could be without the link to
Michael. Bonnie understood that when Michael died, that
Kitt would also be lost to them.
Something must have snapped deep within him for him to
want to throw Michael back into the
darkness they had experienced when Geiger had brutally,
temporarily, severed the link
between them.
Bonnie doubted that Kitt had thought about the
consequences of what he had tried to do. He
was too upset to work things through in his mind. He had
seen a course that he believed
would bring relief from the agony and fear, for him and
for his driver, and he had taken
it. She was grateful to them all, even to Karr, for being
there, for hanging onto Kitt and
not letting him fall. Her thoughts strayed to the cause of
all this misery, and as the
image of Jennifer Knight came unbidden into her head she
balled her fist, bringing it down
hard onto the railing.
"Breaking your hand won't help." Justin's soft voice made
her look up, broke her
glum train of thought. "I put the kettle on. Hot
chocolate?" Bonnie smiled
through her tears and nodded. "He's going to be
okay." She nodded again,
and watched as Justin gave her some space. So many people
had helped them, so many with
the greatest of respect for Kitt. Why couldn't Jennifer
see in him what to everyone else
was so blatantly clear?
Bonnie sniffed and wiped her eyes. She had been proud of
herself, not giving into the
terrible emptiness and sorrow she had felt since the
moment she had heard those petrified
screams from the track. Kitt and Michael needed her,
needed the strength she knew she had,
needed her expertise to heal Kitt's physical wounds, while
Michael, and maybe Karr,
struggled to help him overcome his psychological trauma.
But she had known, at some point,
her feelings were going to have to be released. Nick had
been an angel, a miracle working
to keep them safe. Without him... she didn't want to think
what might have happened, the
situation they would currently be in. Would Kitt still
have been with them? She shuddered,
banishing the thought from her mind. He was with them,
helping every step of the way, and
that's what mattered. With Nick on their side, she was
confident that Jennifer could never
win.
* * *
It took Bonnie a few minutes to track down the incessant
beeping. From the inside of
Kitt's ravaged engine, she had been hearing it for five
minutes or more, and it had just
started to get on her nerves. Finally, she came to Nick's
laptop, still open on one of the
couches in the rest area.
She called upstairs, "Nick!"
He stared at the computer screen, reading over the file
that had found its way through
the Internet channels to one of his countless his domains.
He had no email address, he had
no mailbox, no website. Nicholas MacKenzie was at home in
the Internet, but no one could
trace him. Sending messages off to him with fake
addresses, those containing trigger or
key words, was one way to reach him. The messages would
bounce off the various mailer
daemon engines, going round and round until one of the
many programs Nick had running
would pick it up, scramble the access, and pull it into
the areas MacKenzie visited.
One of those messages had just arrived.
The sender was Devon Miles.
And it wasn't just a simple text file; there was a graphic
file attached to it. He
downloaded it and then opened the graphic file. Nick read
over what was printed there.
And again.
And again.
Finally he sat back, honestly surprised, but not ready to
believe or to even hope. After a
while he accessed the net, hacked into FLAGNet and
deposited a short message for Devon.
* * *
The coffee shop, called 'Sarah's Cup'o'Coffee' was small
and homely, having only three
tables with four chairs each, two booths, and chairs lined
up against the counter. It was
mostly kept in light wood, with the tables covered by
red-checkered cloths and a bunch of
potted flowers and plants at the two large windows. Music
was softly playing in the
background, just loud enough to notice but not too
obnoxious. Devon looked around and
discovered Nick sitting in one of the booths. A mug of
coffee stood in front of him.
Devon took off his coat and hung it up next to the booth,
then sat down silently. Nicholas
didn't offer any kind of greeting and one look into the
steely expression told Devon he
was just here to amuse Devon, to give him one last chance.
The waitress came and he
ordered some tea.
The silence stretched until the tea had arrived and it was
the most uncomfortable one
Devon had ever endured. Not one muscle twitched in
MacKenzie's face and he could have been
a statue if it hadn't been for the occasional blink of the
eyes.
"Thank you for acknowledging my mail," Devon said,
stirring his tea. Nick's
expression didn't change. "Jennifer is fuming. She
has called in the board but
it isn't going well. I talked to them first," Devon went
on, "and they are
considering the proposal I wrote you about."
"A proposal is not yet a fact," Nicholas told him coldly.
"But it is a start, Nick! For God's sake, I'm trying! I
know I made a mistake!"
"Damn right," Nick told him evenly. "And you will pay for
it. This isn't
over."
"Nick, please! I have no control over the board or
Jennifer Knight! Even if I had
objected, it would have been overruled!"
"And there's the rub: you didn't even object!" Anger
flashed briefly in the
other man's eyes. "You agreed. You sat back and let them
do it! Do you know what Kitt
is going through? And Michael?"
Devon avoided the cold fire in the blue depths. "I won't
say I do. I don't think I
can. I can only try to right the wrong I did, even if
there is very little I can offer,
but I will put my weight behind this change of ownership."
He bit his lips as Nick's
expression turned deadly. "I'm not talking about Kitt. I'm
talking about the car,
Nick."
Silence settled again and Devon got out the papers he had
already sent to Nick as a
scanned file.
"I'm expecting a reply soon. Jennifer has not made many
friends with her actions. No
one really knew what she was about to do. Nick, please,
give me a chance!" Devon
almost pleaded.
"I'm not the one you have to ask."
Miles sighed deeply. "How... how are they?"
"Take a guess."
"Nick...."
"Don't try it, Devon. I will wait and see what this
brings, if the board agrees. If
they do, we take the next step." MacKenzie's voice was
still as level as it had been
at the start of the conversation. "And don't try to find
us. You know it is
impossible."
"I won't."
"But Jennifer Knight will. I'm surprised she hasn't called
the police yet."
Devon managed a small smile. "She wants to settle this as
a personal score. And how
do catch someone who doesn't exist and knows your every
step?" Nick's lips never even
twitched. "Nick, I want to talk to Michael," Devon said
after a while.
"Explain it to him...."
"You wouldn't be able to get one word out before he has
punched you in the face,
Devon. He is living Kitt's nightmares live. Last night,
Kitt tried to kill himself. Do you
understand the severity of all this? That the nightmares
you gave him are doing this to
him?"
Devon winced perceptibly. "I.... If you need anything....
I can...."
"We need to be left alone," Nick told him levelly. "Kitt
needs to heal, to
start to accept what has happened, and to let go of the
betrayal he feels. Betrayal by
those he loved and trusted. His soul is severely injured
but hasn't shattered yet. Pray
that it will sustain the pressure it is put under, Devon."
The last was carrying the
tone of a threat.
Miles looked down at his hands, the tea cooling without
him having even touched it.
"I destroyed it all," he said after a while.
"No. Not yet." Devon's head came up. "But you nearly did.
Kitt is not ready
to damn everyone and even though Michael is furious, as
are Bonnie and Justin, you have a
chance. Use it." Nick got out some dollar bills and placed
them on the table.
"You know how to reach me," he said, rising to his feet.
Devon watched him go. His stomach was a clenched fist of
dread and fear, had been so since
the whole terrible events from days ago. He had been
unable to sleep properly and his
dreams were haunted by Kitt's screams as he had been set
on fire, his shrieks as he had
been towed away, and Jennifer Knight's pleased expression.
She was a sadistic,
cold-hearted bitch. And she was a member of the board. He
just hoped they would overrule
her objections to what he had asked for.
Even if it didn't get Kitt and Michael back as Foundation
operatives, it at least paid
back some of what Devon owed them. He wasn't so sure of
FLAG's future anyway. All Wilton
Knight had built, all he had ever dreamed off, all that
had grown over nearly a decade of
friendship, partnership, love and trust had been destroyed
by one woman. And his own
cowardly decision. He could have objected. But he hadn't,
too afraid of showing opposition
against the board that was his employer. Now he had to
deal with the consequences, as did
Michael and Kitt. And Bonnie and Justin.
Even Nicholas.
"What have I done?" Devon whispered, tears stinging
in his eyes. Even if
Michael and Kitt came back, even if the trust returned so
far that Kitt would set one
wheel on Foundation property ever again, nothing would be
as it had been. Devon remembered
Karr's threat in the garage several nights back. He would
have killed him, without
hesitation, without doubt, without remorse. And he had
seen the same expression in
Nicholas' eyes several times. He had asked for Nick to be
there for Michael, to help them
with the implant, and Nicholas was there for them, all the
way.
Protection at all costs.
Even from their old friends.
No, no longer a friend. Devon had ceased to be a friend
when he had sanctioned the tests.
He recalled Nick's words about Kitt's soul. He had stood
back and watched the technicians
intentionally hurt a sentient life form, one he had
nurtured, one he had helped into this
world, one he had befriended and had accepted as a
personality. Kitt was his friend, a
good friend.
And he had almost killed him.
*
Nick sat inside the Stealth, trying to get his raging
emotions under control again.
Karr echoed his fury and he would run over Devon Miles if
let loose. He nurtured a deep
hatred for the man. Finally MacKenzie started the engine
and rolled off.
"Do you think he seriously considers turning proprietary
rights over to Michael
Knight?" Karr asked into the silence.
"Yes," Nick said softly, "Yes, I think he does. All he has
to do is fight
for it, against the board if necessary."
Karr was silent. "What about me?" he finally asked.
Nick blinked. "You?"
"I belong to FLAG."
"The hell you do!" Nick growled.
"Wilton Knight designed and built me. FLAG legally owns
me." Disgust swung in
Karr's voice.
"They *owned* you, Karr. Past tense. And they only owned
your body .... never your
soul."
"I...." Karr stopped, struggling with the concept.
Nick reached out with his mind and smiled at the confusion
that met him. "FLAG threw
you away, left you in the desert," he said gently. "Your
body work belongs to
me; I paid for it. Your soul only belongs to you,
partner."
"It belongs to you too," Karr whispered so softly it went
by almost unheard.
Nick stopped the Stealth in a side street. "You are owned
by no one!" he stated
firmly.
"We are partners; we share the neuro link. We are ....
one," Karr said
hesitantly. "And...." He stopped, struggling again. "And I
like the idea of
...belonging."
Nick stared, surprised, even slightly shocked. Maybe
because it was the truth about being
one; maybe because for a second Karr had opened up
completely and confessed his feelings.
"The same is true for Kitt. My brother belongs rightfully
to Michael Knight; he
always has." Karr fell silent after that, but the implant
spoke more than words.
Nicholas simply embraced him, hugged him close, briefly
touching the sensor.
"Let's go home," he whispered after some time.
* * *
Nicholas drove back into the warehouse, parking Karr
close to Kitt. He got out and
walked over to where Bonnie was discussing something with
Justin. Karr warily watched the
link that had been painfully quiet lately. Since his
suicide attempt, Kitt had not really
projected anything through the connection running between
them and it left a hollowness
inside Karr he wasn't used to. His brother was afraid; of
him, of the link, of the
connection. Of what he had done. And Karr was afraid too.
He was rattled by Kitt's attempt
to end his existence. Now, as he sat there after coming
back from the cafe, he felt Kitt
approach.
<_Karr?
It was a hesitant call, a bit frightened.
<_Yes?
He felt a shiver pass through Kitt and sighed. He had not
wanted to sound so harsh, but
his rage at Devon Miles had shortly taken over.
<_I apologize, Kitt. I didn't want to snap.
<_I know, Kitt answered softly. <_You are still
there. Why?
<_You need ...help.
<_You helped, Kitt whispered, as if now recalling it.
Then he flinched. <_You were
there.....
Karr retreated further. <_Not intentionally. Not to
hurt. I apologize for the
intrusion. I didn't want it so... personal.
<_You cut the nightmare. Thank you, Karr. I owe you my
life.... my sanity.
Karr was starting to feel embarrassed. <_You.... you
are welcome, he mumbled, despite
his better knowledge not to get emotional over it.
Kitt approached him, trembling. <_Will you stay? His
voice was almost child-like.
Karr looked at the fearful little presence, the tremors
running through the once so bright
spark of life, and his decision came without hesitation.
<_I will.
Another wave of relief came through, mixed with
gratefulness, and then Kitt retreated back
into the safety of his own CPU. Karr rolled silently
closer, as always positioning himself
between the hurt AI and anyone approaching. Soft pulses
came through the link and he
enjoyed the echoes for once. No pain, no nightmares, no
fear, not even a sign of a
remembered suicide attempt; just Kitt resting easily for
the first time since it had
happened. It wouldn't last, but it was good while it
lasted.
It lasted precisely three hours. Kitt woke slowly, this
time not through a nightmare but
naturally in a way, his mind clear for the very first
time. His systems powered up to the
point where he was aware, but he did not interface
completely with all his peripheral
functions. He didn't want to see and hear all, be able to
scan, trace and perform
everything he was used to. His outside data input was at a
minimum, all his information
coming in through the neuro link to his driver. Almost
instinctively he searched for
Michael's presence and found it with him, though not
physically. Michael was close by,
maybe outside, and Kitt got the impression of salty air
and water.
Water?
He stopped, surprised and confused.
Where was he?
What had happened?
Before a panic attack could strike something else touched
him. Not Michael's soft and warm
presence. This was harder, colder, but not hostile. It was
familiar too, caring but
missing the warmth, something bordering to affection and
love, but not quite. As if it was
unable to express what it felt. Kitt probed carefully and
was stunned to find Karr. His
memory jump-started and he gasped as he recalled what had
passed in the last few days,
especially when he became aware of his desperate attempt
to cease functioning. And he was
shocked into fear at Karr's nearness, his close presence,
though his strength and fierce
protectiveness gave Kitt a feeling of physical safety he
hadn't had before.
But where was he?
<_Where am I?
He sent the question out to the other presence almost
unconsciously. Karr flinched and
suddenly withdrew into the distance, leaving Kitt feeling
deprived of something he had not
known was there, empty, alone.
He cried out involuntarily, flailing for the missing
support. <_No!
Karr hesitated.
<_Please? Kitt begged softly.
<_You wouldn't want me that close while you are awake,
Kitt, he said, voice not as cold
as usual, but there was a trace of the well-known
ruthlessness in it.
<_Why?
<_It would hurt you.
Kitt hesitated. <_You've been there all the time?
Silence. Then, <_In a way.
<_Why?
Another silence and this time there was no answer. Maybe
it was cutting too close to the
other AI.
<_We are no longer at the mansion? Kitt then asked.
<_No. We moved because of safety reasons. Karr gave him
an impression of where he was,
of what was around him since Kitt refused to link up
completely. <_Safe, he repeated
softly.
Kitt started to tremble a bit. He was no longer at home,
on familiar ground; he was
somewhere strange and unknown. Memories were jolted awake,
mocking his feelings of 'home'.
Where they froze you.
Where they set you on fire.
Where they tortured and tormented you.
Where they betrayed you!
<_Stop! Karr's harsh command shook him. <_Stop that
right now!
<_But it's true, Kitt whispered brokenly. <_They
betrayed me!
<_Not 'they'! 'They' means Michael Knight and Bonnie
Barstow too! Karr hissed
angrily. <_They didn't betray you. They are here,
caring and loving you! Your
chief mechanic and the truck driver, they helped too, they
risked their existence to see
you safe! Don't you dare start generalizing!
Throughout the almost brutal words Karr had come closer.
Kitt felt his anger, his own
pain, his intention not to let Kitt fall into that hatred
he felt still inside him.
<_But Devon and Jennifer.....
Karr's reaction was one of rage and he wasn't fast enough
to stop the wave from hitting
Kitt. Kitt whimpered, drew back, shaking at the extreme
emotions flooding him.
<_No, Kitt, I'm sorry! Karr whispered quickly. <_I
didn't want this.....
<_You hate them.
<_Yes.
<_But you won't allow me to hate them. Why?
Karr sighed, settling back again. <_Because they are
your friends. Not all of them; not
Jennifer Knight.
Kitt saw fragments of events from the past days, saw Karr
attacking Jennifer, and was
astounded. But he held his silence.
<_Don't hate them all. Don't let this feeling of
betrayal catch a hold on you. I
did.... And see what it got me.....
An uneasy silence settled over the two AIs, Kitt marveling
at what he had heard and seen.
<_But why did they do it if they are my friends? he
finally asked.
And the nightmares started to creep up on him again, this
single question triggering a
recollection of the events. Karr was suddenly there,
inserting himself fiercely between
his brother's mind and the horror that was his memory.
Kitt cried out nevertheless and
flinched away, coming apart again, afraid and calling for
help. Karr simply stayed there,
reaching out, trying to soothe. It was not what Michael
Knight's presence would do to
Kitt, but he quieted down slightly, trembling.
<_Why? he whimpered. <_My fault?
Karr was horrified. <_No! Not your fault! You did
nothing wrong!
<_Should have stayed inside the room! Kitt cried
suddenly.
<_NO! Karr forcefully cut back that line of thinking,
going deeper into Kitt's CPU. It
was a brutally open breach of privacy, but Kitt was
suddenly turning his emotions around,
now searching for the fault in himself.
<_If I had stayed....
<_You would have died!
The nightmares of the cold room returned but this time
they hit Karr first. He bit back a
scream and lashed out, shattering the flood, driving it
back.
<_Ran.....
<_Yes, you ran! It was good that you ran!
<_Because of that the fire came! Kitt shrieked now.
Karr almost retreated out of horror what was coming his
way, but he held his ground,
shrieking as well as the firestorm crashed over him.
<_It would have come anyway! he cried to make himself
heard over the cacophony of
nightmarish memories.
<Why?!
Karr cursed everyone involved in the tests, his hatred
boiling up anew but kept in check.
He couldn't give in to it because it would immediately
flood Kitt too, and Kitt didn't
need any more triggers. The pain he was enduring, which
Karr felt too, was enough.
<_Why? his brother whimpered.
Karr was silent, simply holding him, stabilizing his
fragile mind. He felt Nicholas'
probe, asking, holding too, and he was thankful for this
anchor to his driver.
And then Michael Knight was there. He felt the human's
presence inside the CPU and as
Knight took a hold of Kitt's quivering mind, Karr withdrew
gently. Kitt quieted down
faster than the last time, sobbing softly but no longer
plagued by the terror that was
lurking inside him. Karr kept on watching, suffering with
his brother, wishing he could do
more.
"You already do a lot for him," Nick said gently, joining
him, smiling.
"And it helps."
"But I can't seem to take the feelings of betrayal away."
"Because Kitt remembers too vividly." Karr winced as Nick
drew closer. The
implant had been strained by this latest outbreak, mainly
because Karr had been in the
line of fire, had been the first wall of defense. Nicholas
tried to remove himself as he
sensed it, but Karr held on, needing the support even if
it meant the burning inside him
intensifying.
"Stay," he begged.
Nick smiled and sat down inside the Stealth, physically
drawing closer too. Kitt was
healing slowly, painfully; painfully for everyone
involved, but steps were taken. Karr
felt exhausted from the ordeal and Nick's gentle strokes
over the inside sensor were
lulling him into a light sleep. He surrendered to it.
* * *
"That thing tried to kill me!"
John Landes, member of the Board of Directors of FLAG,
watched the slender woman rage in
front of him with a bemused smile. Her accusations weren't
amusing as such, but her
attitude was.
"Jennifer, calm down."
She glared at him as if he had just accused her of being
the guilty one. "Calm down?
Calm down!? This... this MacKenzie tried to kill me! His
car attacked me! He stole my
property and used it to assault me!"
"You are accusing him of theft?"
"Yes! I'm going to sue him for everything!"
Landes looked even more amused. Suing Nicholas MacKenzie
would be an interesting
past-time. The man didn't exist; he was a shadow, a
ghost.....
"Do you know who MacKenzie is?" he asked quietly, already
knowing the answer.
"He is an arrogant asshole with an attitude who stole my
property and assaulted
me!" Jennifer told him. "And I will get it back! All of
it! I don't care who he
is! I don't care that he was my father's prime choice for
the driver he always
wanted!"
Landes nodded. She was totally unaware that she was going
up against someone she wouldn't
be able to win.
"What?!" she demanded.
"Nothing," he answered, smiling faintly.
"I'll show them!" Jennifer promised. "I'm going to get the
car back! Both
of them!" With that she whirled around and stormed out of
the office.
John shook his head. Jennifer had come in a foul mood, had
screamed at every single one of
the servants in the estate, had scared half of them out of
their wits, then had brushed
past John's secretary and claimed the whole office
immediately. He had listened to her
accusations, her temper outbreak, and had slowly gotten a
picture of what had happened
back at the Knight estate.
And Nicholas MacKenzie was right in the middle. John knew
him, had met the man when Wilton
Knight had chosen him as the future driver of the KARR.
John was also one of the few who
knew about the implant experiment, something that had
failed miserably both times. At the
time he had known MacKenzie he had been wary of the man no
one knew much of. He was a
trained agent, he was a specialist when it came to
infiltration and computer espionage,
and John knew that this man could kill someone in ten ways
within a second. Why Wilton had
chosen him.... he had no idea. Then the KARR project had
gone awry and MacKenzie had
disappeared again, but not without leaving all still
puzzling about his identity. Michael
Long had stepped onto the stage next, playing the role
Wilton had wanted Nicholas and the
KARR to play.
Now he was back.
And with him KARR?
Again?
Had the malicious AI survived? And if yes, why was it with
MacKenzie? A thousand questions
and no real answers. When it came to Nicholas, there was
no straight answer possible.
Half-truths, shadowy lies, hidden secrets...it all made up
this strange man.
John smiled as he imagined Jennifer's encounter with KARR.
He didn't particularly like
her. No one on the board did. She was Wilton Knight's
daughter, but except for being
related in blood, there was no other common trait. She was
more like her brother than her
father.
He would have to wait and see what happened next. He only
knew it would be very
interesting.
* * *
Justin shook his head as he looked into Kitt's engine
compartment. Parts that were
singed, burned or molten greeted his eyes and he knew he
had a lot of work ahead. Not to
mention the circuitry that would need a professional
once-over by Bonnie. The electrical
currents had fried so much of Kitt's delicate systems, it
was a miracle some of them were
still working! The Knight Two Thousand had had to be
connected to an outside feed again,
but this time there was an independent system to regulate
intake. Kitt would not be able
to influence or sabotage it.
He finished his list of needed parts and then walked off
to the small storage area not far
away.
Half an hour later Justin knew they needed more than what
was in the room.
*
"Nicholas?"
Nick looked up and discovered Justin. The chief mechanic
had his notepad with him.
"Let me guess? Spares?"
Justin nodded. "I have most of what I need, but not
everything." He hesitated.
"You said you could get us what we need...."
Nick smiled humorlessly. "I tend to keep good on my
promises. Let me have the list
and I'll have it here ASAP." He glanced at the list Justin
handed him and nodded.
"How is it going?" he then wanted to know.
"Slowly. Bonnie is still debating whether to take the CPU
out again or not. If it
weren't for Kitt's .... condition, I'd be all for it, but
the last time we did it and put
him back in...." Justin stopped, sighing.
"I know," Nicholas muttered. He opened his PowerBook. "Try
to leave him
inside. If it gets to be too much you can still take him
out."
Justin had to agree. He watched Nick key into the
Internet, then he left, not even wanting
to know where their mysterious friend ordered the wanted
parts from.
Nick watched the log-on procedure and glanced at the list
again. Using a scanner he got
it into a separate file and then waited for the
acknowledgment of a link to the part of
the net he frequently used for his dealings. DarkNet
didn't officially exist. It was
nothing but a rumor, a whisper among the other nets, but
it was there and here Nick met
those whose services he sometimes need. As he browsed
through he various areas he quickly
took notice of what had changed, what might be of interest
for later, and where others had
disappeared. Finally he slipped into a chat room.
* Long time no see, Shadow
He smiled darkly. * Hello, Frog.
* I suppose this is not a social call, though you have
been kinda absent, man
* I need to employ your services, Frog.
* Always, man, always! Got a big order for the green one?
Nicholas smiled again. * Yes. Coming through.
He encoded the file and transferred it into Frog's domain.
There was a short silence, then
the other man came back again.
* No problem, man.
* How long?
* An hour?
* Perfect. Home delivery.
* Usual services, man. You know me.
* I do.
With that he signed off.
*
Bonnie straightened and rotated her stiff shoulders,
feeling like her muscles were one
big ache. At least she was making progress and it seemed
like Kitt was not affected as
much as she had feared. He had been very quiet, a faint
twitch here or there showing her
that he was indeed somewhat conscious, but overall he was
silent. The needed parts had
arrived an hour before in form of an old van stopping
outside. She had curiously walked
closer and discovered a thin, wiry man in baggy clothes
unloading stuff while talking to
Nick. His bare arms had been tattooed, his thin hair
standing out in a frazzled mop and
from his dress code he had a serious problem with colors.
No man in his right mind would
wear those bright colors. He looked like a rainbow fish on
legs. Finally he had left, the
old van rattling and rumbling over the cobblestones. Nick
had carried the boxes inside,
Justin running to help, and Bonnie had once again decided
not to ask.
"How are you doing?"
The quiet, somewhat heavy voice let her turn and a smile
crept over her face. "We're
getting somewhere. How are you?"
Michael gave her a tired smile. "Beaten."
She simply hugged him and felt him cling to her for a
moment, needing the human contact,
needing her support. "You can sit inside if you want to,"
she whispered as he
buried his face in her hair.
"Thanks." His voice sounded a bit muffled.
Bonnie watched him climb into the TransAm and sit there
for a brief moment, then lean
forward and simply hug the steering wheel. Emotional pain
shot through her. Biting her
lower lip she turned back to her work, trying to force
herself to concentrate on the job.
Kitt had not slept well, haunted by the effects of his own
terrible actions. Rest had
come, finally, when Nick and Karr had returned from their
rendezvous with Devon, and Karr
was once again parked close. But three hours later Kitt
had woken disorientated, and a
panic attack had swept over him, drowning him once more in
fear and painful memories.
Michael had gone through all of this with his partner. He
had taken a walk this morning,
out along the deserted harbor front, when Kitt had finally
fallen asleep with Karr
watching over him. Michael had needed some air, some
space, needed to feel the breeze on
his skin, just to remind himself that the world outside
their nightmare was still turning.
It felt almost as if they had dropped out of the great
scheme of things, lost their
footing and fallen off, or been pushed. Still Michael
couldn't answer Kitt's constant,
simple question of why. He wished he could. Maybe if they
could give Kitt a reason, an
explanation, he would be able to heal, if not to accept.
None of them could ever accept
what had been done. He had bathed himself in memories
while he had been out, remembered
the good times, tried to project the happiness of those
times back to his partner. And
Kitt had slept, peacefully for a while.
Now he was sitting inside his car, his presence soothing
and reassuring that of his friend
and partner. "You can talk to me," he told Kitt gently.
"Why didn't you
reach for me last night? There's always another way."
Michael didn't expect a verbal answer; Kitt was still not
speaking in the conventional
manner. Michael hated to think what this would have been
like without the link. Would he
even have known the danger his partner was in? Or would he
have returned from his mission
to find Kitt dead? Killed by those he had trusted. Anger
flared up inside him once more
and he crushed it. This wasn't the time; Kitt could not
cope with anything more at the
moment.
Kitt's answer came in a torrent of emotions that Michael
felt through the implant. //too
much even for both of us// Kitt still sounded scared
and upset, but the desperation
to find a release had been replaced by a desperation to
find a way to cope.
"No, we're strong. We have each other. We will always have
each other."
There was a pause, as Kitt started to cried softly,
burying himself in Michael's embrace.
//sorry//
Michael tightened his hug, mentally and physically. He
released his hold only once since
the terrifying events of the previous night - he had let
his embrace slip from Kitt as he
had walked outside, and Kitt had almost fallen apart on
them again, stopped only by Karr's
fierce refusal to allow anything more to happen to his
brother.
"No apologies needed, Kitt. I know how much they
hurt you."
//no hurt you wrong no
hurt you//
"You don't hurt me. I'm here for you, to help you. We can
get through this. But I
don't ever want to go on alone. Nothing is worth losing
you over. I can't face life
without you."
No more words came for a while, but Michael found himself
being flooded with emotions,
feelings of gratefulness, of being needed and loved.
Kitt's way of saying thank you when
the two words came nowhere near to being enough. Kitt just
stayed there, close to Michael,
accepting all the reassurance his driver was offering, all
the hope he was projecting. He
was vaguely considering what Karr had told him, where they
were.
//we're hiding// He stated quietly, eventually.
"For now. It's safer this way."
//will find us//
"//no//" Michael spoke the word forcefully, out loud as
well as through the
link, pushing waves of determination and strength through
the implant.
//safe now//
//will they... separate us?//
//never again promise always
be here with you//
Michael closed his eyes, finally losing himself in his
mind, deepening the link. Kitt was
starting to sleep, wrapped in Michael's warmth as he had
been for most of the time since
the terrible incidents at the labs. Curled up with him,
Michael struggled to stay awake
himself.
//rest//
Michael smiled. //I need to be with you//
//you are sleep
please//
//wake me//
//if I need you now sleep//
Michael let his thoughts fade, drifting into the blackness
of sleep, bringing Kitt closer
to him, holding him in a loving hug. Bonnie and Justin
continued to fix the damage to the
engine, being absolutely careful not to do anything that
would disturb the resting AI, or
his driver.
* * *
The Foundation Board of Directors was made up of eight
men and women, most of whom had
been hand picked by Wilton Knight long before the start of
the Knight Two Thousand
project. The Board usually met at a house in South
California that was part of the Knight
heritage. It was owned now by Jennifer, although she had
never spent more than a couple of
hours every month there, at the meetings. It was a roaming
house, Tudor in design, with a
board room, several offices that the board members were
free to use, an extensive library
and a full quota of staff that maintained the place and
could cater for any Board member
who wished to stay there for whatever reason, at whatever
time.
This was where John had wished to meet Devon, a few days
before the board was due to
convene to discuss his proposal regarding ownership of the
Knight Two Thousand.
Devon shook John's outstretched hand and smiled, trying to
make it look genuine. John
Landes was a member of the Foundation Board of Directors,
and had been since Wilton Knight
had appointed him over ten years ago. He had personally
overseen the development of the
Knight Two Thousand - the car - and had a great pride in
his work. He was a big man,
physically and in the way his presence was felt when he
entered a room. The rest of the
board had the utmost respect for him, and Devon had been
both relieved and worried when he
had received John's request to see him. FLAG's future -
his future - could well depend on
this man.
"Devon, thank you for coming. Please sit down. Tea?"
Devon took the proffered seat almost nervously. He was
tired, so very tired. "No....
Thank you."
John looked down at his friend. "Then let me get you a
whiskey, Devon. You look like
you need it." He strolled over to the substantial liquor
cabinet and poured two
generous measures, handing one to Miles. "I have to tell
you, Devon, when I first
read your proposal I was skeptical. About its contents and
about your state of mind.
That's why I called you."
"John...."
He held up a big hand. "Let me finish." John sat himself
down behind his
mahogany desk. "I went over to the labs yesterday, see if
I could find out what
exactly happened. I spoke to a lab assistant who was there
that afternoon. He told me what
he'd heard; Kitt screaming. He said it sounded like an
animal in great pain. He said he
went to look out at what was happening and he saw them
dousing the car with foam, that the
flames were incredible. He told me that a few minutes
later they half-towed, half-dragged
the car back, on just its wheel hubs, and the Kitt was
shrieking." Devon was sitting
before him, nodding, his eyes pinned on the spot of floor
between his feet. "What I
don't understand is how you just stood by and let them do
it."
Devon shook his head, still staring at the floor. Finally,
after a stretched silence had
fallen between them, John obviously patiently waiting for
an answer, Devon looked up.
"I'll ask myself that question for the rest of my life."
John smiled at him gently. "I spoke to Kitt at the last
fund raiser afternoon you
held at the Foundation. He was very... human. I've always
liked him, always thought he was
more than we'd created him to be, and I know Mr. Knight is
very close to him." He
cocked his head to one side, reading Devon's expression.
Finally, after a long silence, John rose, moving to a
painting that was hanging on the
wall of his office; one his art-student daughter had done
of Kitt, several years ago.
"Why do you want ownership of the car signed over to
Michael Knight?"
Devon thought for a moment, ordering his many and varied
reasons and picking the main one.
"I believe it's the only way that he will consider
returning to the Foundation."
"You know Jennifer's on the war path. She's furious that
they've taken off."
"I don't know where they are, John."
"I know you don't. It's that MacKenzie. The moment
he became involved, Jennifer
didn't stand a chance. But getting her to understand
that...." John shook his head,
turning back to Devon curiously. "Is it true what she told
me? That he has the KARR
AI in his car?"
Devon nodded. "Please don't ask me to claim that back from
him."
John shook his head. "Oh no, wouldn't dream of it. Good
riddance and good luck to
him, that's what I say. No, the board won't want that
responsibility again. I was just...
interested. Has it changed?"
"I'm not sure. I think so. He's certainly become very
protective of Kitt."
John's eyes widened in surprise. "Really? Well, well.... I
would never have thought
Karr possible of brotherly love." He smiled, the world of
AIs very close and normal
to him. "At least it ensures that Jennifer does not stand
a chance of getting to Kitt
again."
"That's definitely true."
"Have you heard from them?" Devon nodded. "How is Kitt?"
"Not good. From what I can work out, they've been...
fighting to keep the AI
stable."
"He'll survive, Devon."
"Maybe." Devon remembered Nick's words, 'Did you know Kitt
tried to kill
himself?'. "I have to let Nicholas know of the Boards'
decision about
ownership."
"I have to tell you Devon, I'm not happy with the idea of
signing ownership of a
multi-million dollar system over to Michael Knight, as
much as I respect the man. Mind
you, I do understand the need to recognize Kitt as more
than an expensive toy for Jennifer
to play with."
"Thank you."
John chuckled. "Don't thank me yet, Devon. This won't be
an easy fight. But I am on
your side. I'll see what I can do."
* * *
Karr was still in stand-by rest mode when the rage hit
him. It was human rage, powerful
and searing hot. Karr's system went on-line and he felt
the implant scream, disbelief,
anger, fury.... incredulous, unable to accept.
<Nick?>
His partner gave a hiss. Karr had rarely felt his friend's
anger that close, this intense,
and uncontrolled. Normally Karr was the one to lose
control, but not this time. MacKenzie
walked down the stairs, his face a mask of fury. Karr took
the cue and followed him
outside not to disturb Kitt. Nick walked past the next
warehouse and finally came to rest
at the edge of the quay. Karr stopped behind him,
questioning softly.
Nick's body was vibrating with suppressed anger. "I
managed to get into her
files," he finally whispered harshly.
Karr was silent. He knew Nick was constantly inside
FLAGNet and searching through whatever
files he could find, regardless of who had created them,
who used them. He had no scruples
at all and since they had found out more and more about
the tests, saw what they had done
to Kitt, Nick was more intent than he had ever been to get
behind it all.
"I know now."
Karr inched closer, physically and mentally. A whirlpool
of emotions greeted him. Nick was
more than agitated about this; he was close to losing his
every restraint.
<What did they do it for?> Karr finally asked.
Nick's blue eyes burned with an inner fire. "Military!" he
hissed. "She
wants to sell him! As a weapon! She found her father's
files on his dealings with the
military when you were born, saw how much they offered to
get you as a weapon, and she saw
the money she could make now with Kitt! She wanted to know
how much the molecular bonded
shell could take, how much Kitt could take, to estimate
his value in money! She already
started dealing with military officials!"
His voice was nothing but a harsh whisper. Nick rarely
yelled. His voice dropped the
angrier he got, and it was far more frightening than
anybody screaming. Karr felt shock,
anger, fury, disbelief, all Nick had felt, also course
through him.
"They asked for the test results! They wanted to know!
Goddamnit, she wanted to sell
him!"
Nick's fist connected with the brick wall of the warehouse
neighboring his own place. The
cuts that had healed throughout the days since he had
first abused his hand opened again
and bled freely. He didn't even seem to notice. The pain
was just more fuel to his fury.
"I should have run her over," Karr finally growled.
"And next time I won't stop you!" Nick hissed. "She must
have a heart of
stone!"
"And she will want Kitt back for sure now." Karr's voice
dropped several
degrees. "I won't let her touch him!"
MacKenzie screwed his eyes shut, trying to control
his surging emotions.
"Neither of us will."
"Will you tell them?"
"I can't. Not yet. It would do too much damage."
"Did Miles know?" Karr asked coldly.
"There is nothing in his files and he keeps them
meticulously. I don't think he
does." Nick sank back against his partner and Karr felt
the tremors passing through
the tense body. MacKenzie inhaled deeply. "This is getting
worse and worse. When will
it ever stop?"
Karr had no answer for it. Nick started to massage his
hand and winced at the pain
shooting through it. He was lucky he hadn't broken it,
though he wasn't so sure about
possible hairline fractures.
"Get back to Kitt," he finally told his partner. "I think
I need to work
off some energy or I'm going to explode."
Karr understood and though he would have loved to
accompany his partner, protecting Kitt
was his priority. And Nick knew that. He watched Nicholas
walk off down the quay road,
felt his friend's emotions surge and calm again, then he
put in a gear and drove back to
the warehouse. Nick would be all right.
He wished he could say the same for Kitt.
* * *
John Landes got to his feet, the room settling, waiting
for him to explain what all
this was about, and why FLAG had suddenly dropped every
case it was handling, including
the special mission concerning the threat of TechNet.
"Members of the Board, thank you all for coming under such
short notice. This is a
special meeting to discuss recent events concerning the
Knight Industries Two Thousand.
For those of you who aren't aware, four days ago, Jennifer
Knight ran the tests agreed on
by this board during the last monthly meeting. Her own
technicians, with the permission of
Devon Miles, ran two of the five proposed tests on the
car. What occurred during and after
those tests is part of the reason we are here. I also have
a proposal that Devon Miles
wants put forward to the board."
Across from him, Walter Percival, probably the oldest
member of the board - at least in
age - leaned back and pinned John with a glare. "Before we
go into why and
wherefores, John, could you tell us if you have any idea
where the Knight Industries Two
Thousand is at this moment?"
"No." John shook his head. "I can't. I have no idea."
"Are you saying... it has been stolen?"
"No. I'm saying that in the aftermath of the tests, events
occurred to force Michael
Knight, our driver and operative, to remove the car from
the Knight Estate to another,
unknown location."
Quinn Cambell, a wonderful elderly lady, a millionaire and
a woman who had been close to
Wilton Knight for most of his life, leaned in to speak.
Everyone knew when she wanted to
say something, it was a gift of hers to be able to get a
room's attention with a single
movement. "What kind of events, John? What exactly
happened during those tests? We
run tests all the time without incident."
John smiled slightly, looking straight at her. "Not like
these." He turned to
Jennifer, sitting at the Board Room table, staring at
table top, still fuming. "Miss
Knight, would you like to explain your version of events,
after the lab's fire crew had
prevented the fire you stared, using our car."
Quinn stared at her, "You set it alight?!"
"Mrs Cambell, Mr. Landes," Jennifer finally looked up, her
hands clasped across
the table. "Members of the board. It's perfectly simple. I
ran two of the five tests
I had your permission to run."
"Wait a minute," John held up a halting hand. "Let me just
get this
straight in my mind. I reread the minutes of the last
meeting, and nowhere and I stress
nowhere - do they record that we gave you permission to do
what you did. We said you could
test realistic extremes that may affect the driver if the
car was subjected to those
extremes."
"And that is exactly what I did."
"From what I have heard, Tarasine was the chemical that
you sprayed over the car
before setting it alight. Tarasine burns at nearly 800
degrees. Under what circumstances
do you believe Michael Knight would be threatened by that
sort of heat?"
"I tested extremes, Mr. Landes. That is what you gave me
permission to do." She
glared at him. "If I may continue?"
"Go ahead."
"We ran two of the tests. As we were towing the car back
to the lab to run the other
three, Michael Knight arrived. He threatened us all,
released the car from the tow truck
and drove it away. We were also threatened by Devon's new
friend, Nicholas
MacKenzie."
John shook his head. "Miss Knight...."
She stood, slamming her palms down flat on the table.
"Will you stop interrupting
me!"
John stayed perfectly calm. "Not until you start telling
something close to the
truth."
Her eyes widened, as did those of a few other board
members. "Are you accusing me of
lying?"
"Yes. I went across to the lab a few days ago. I spoke to
a few of the technicians
who were working there that afternoon. Each one has told
me that the screams of the Knight
Industries Two Thousand AI computer could be heard across
the complex, and that as you
towed the car back to the lab, he was shrieking in pain."
Jennifer laughed, "You're all the same. You all give that
machine human
characteristics, but you should know better than anyone
Mr. Landes, it isn't human. It is
only a computer. It doesn't feel pain."
John sighed deeply. "Fine. If that's true, if Kitt is only
a computer, would you mind
telling us what happened when you went up to the garage to
retrieve it the day after the
tests, and also why Michael Knight has felt it necessary
to move the car to an unknown
location, to ensure Kitt's safety?"
"Knight has stolen that car, our property! And as for what
happened when I went into
the garage - that other car, MacKenzie's monster - that is
also our property I might add -
tried to kill me."
Walter's surprisingly blue eyes searched out Jennifer's
and held her gaze. "Our
property?"
"He has the KARR AI."
This was news to everyone but John. He had been talking to
Devon Miles, finding out
exactly what was going on, and personally he was siding
with Kitt on this one. He liked
Kitt. He respected Kitt as a person, and wasn't sure why
the other Board members,
especially Jennifer, seemed to have so much trouble seeing
the AI as the person he was.
Walter looked as if he might suffer a heart attack at any
moment. "I thought it had
been destroyed!"
John shook his head, waving a dismissive hand at them all.
"KARR is no longer our
problem, and I would have thought you would all have been
grateful for that." His
last words were measured, and slowly but surely, each
person around the table nodded,
muttering agreeable things.
Jennifer looked around her. "It's ours! It's worth
millions."
"It's a killer, my dear," Walter told her in no uncertain
terms. "If
MacKenzie wants it, let him have it. It's caused us so
much trouble, it's nice to know we
don't have to bury it any longer."
She seemed to flounder for an argument for a while, and
then she simply sat down, beaten
by their logic.
"What's this proposal of Miles'?" Quinn asked John after a
moment's silence.
John reached into his briefcase and handed around a folder
to each person. Inside was a
five-page document basically asking that ownership of the
Knight Two Thousand be handed to
Michael Knight. For a few minutes, the Board members read
what was written there. There
was a general shaking of heads, exactly as John had
expected.
"This is preposterous!" Jennifer was so predictable, John
thought to himself.
"He can't possible expect us to sign this!"
"He just wants us to consider it as an option."
Quinn closed the folder and pushed it away from her. "It
won't happen, John. That car
is worth millions and millions of dollars."
"It certainly won't happen!" Jennifer was on her feet
again, yelling. "This
is all insane. I'm going to the police. I'm having Michael
Knight charged with theft, and
that other man charged with... with attempted murder. I
won't be threatened by my own
employees!!!!"
They all looked at each other as the
door slammed shut. One by one,
Board members rose, shaking their heads and mumbling.
Quinn leaned over to where John was
sitting, her silver hair catching the light in a way John
always thought made her look
distinguished without making her look like a snob. He
liked Quinn. "We can't let the
car go just like that."
John met her eyes sadly. "I think we've already lost the
car, Quinn. I believe this
proposal may be the only way to get it back."
* * *
Bonnie had watched Nicholas MacKenzie closely in the last
hours, mainly when he was
using his laptop to do whatever he was doing. She had seen
the closely controlled anger,
the rage in his eyes that had been burning there since
yesterday every time he thought he
was alone. And then she had discovered the FLAGNet symbol
in his screen once while passing
by. Bonnie knew Nick was able to get in and out of FLAGNet
undetected and that he
frequently browsed through it, but this time it was
different. Whatever he was looking for
and apparently finding, it angered him so much he was
showing it openly. For someone who
usually appeared totally emotionless, this was a major
sign that something was eating away
at him. And Bonnie wanted to know.
She caught Nick alone in the garage in the afternoon.
Michael was upstairs taking a
shower, Justin had taken Nick's motorbike to go to town,
and Kitt was resting. Karr was...
she didn't know. He rarely spoke with anyone else but his
driver and his presence, though
she was getting used to him in leaps, still made her wary
and evoked slight fear. She knew
he was a great asset, an aid for Kitt, but he was still
Karr. Ignoring the Stealth she
walked over to Nicholas. "Nick?"
He looked up and gave her a brief smile. "Dr. Barstow?"
Once again she wondered why he never called her by her
first name, but she had given up on
it.
"Can we talk?" She nodded almost imperceptibly at the two
cars, indicating she
didn't want Kitt to listen in accidentally.
Nicholas nodded and rose, gesturing her to follow him
outside. It was a cloudy afternoon
and there was barely any sun filtering through the thick
cover of clouds. The salty air
coming in from the harbor was refreshing and the soft
sound of the waves lapping against
the quay was a calming background noise.
"What is it?" Nick now asked.
"I think I should ask you that. I know you are frequently
hacking into FLAGNet and I
know you found something. Something to do with what
happened back at the test track."
Bonnie noticed how Nick's features closed up and she knew
she was following the right
trail. "Nick, what happened?"
"Nothing you should concern yourself with," he said
brusquely and tried to push
past her, back into the warehouse.
Anger rose inside her and Bonnie grabbed his arm. "No, I
think it concerns me!"
she snapped. "And Michael and Kitt! Everyone involved in
this mess! You have found
out why and I want to know!"
He shook his head. "No, you don't."
Bonnie's eyes flared with barely suppressed anger now.
"Don't tell me what I want! I
know it exactly! Now spill it, Mister! I have a right to
know!"
Nicholas stopped, regarding her for her long time, face
unreadable. "Yes, you
have," he finally said. "But it won't be pretty."
"MacKenzie, stop evading!" Bonnie growled.
Nick smiled humorlessly and then gestured her to sit down
on the quay wall. And he began
to tell her what he had found, what had been in the test
files, in Jennifer Knight's
personal logs, all of it. Bonnie didn't believe her ears
and she felt uncontrolled rage
rise inside of her.
"That... that.... bitch!" she finally managed, erupting
from her place.
"I'm going to kill her!"
Nicholas took her arm and shook his head. "No, you won't."
She glared. "How could she do this?! How?! To Kitt!"
"For her, Kitt is an object."
Bonnie glared even more. "But sell him? To the
*military*!? The guts! The nerve! What
is this? Slave trade?!"
"Dr. Barstow...."
She removed her arm out of his grasp. "Don't try and calm
me, MacKenzie!"
"I don't want to. You have every right to your fury."
She started to pace, unable to understand what she had
been told. Jennifer Knight had
ordered these tests to see how much the Knight Two
Thousand and the molecular bonded shell
could sustain, but not to help FLAG. No, she had done it
for her own profit.
Her plan had been to sell Kitt off to the military, to
replace him with another car for
Michael Knight, to make a fortune. Bonnie felt like
strangling her. If Jennifer had been
here, she would not have hesitated.
"How long have you known?" she finally asked.
Nick sighed. "I started hacking since the first night in
the garage. I didn't know it
all then, but my knowledge grew. I found out about the
idea behind it all yesterday."
"Why didn't you tell us?" Bonnie demanded.
"Because it wouldn't help right now. If Michael finds out
while Kitt is too unstable
to deal with that knowledge too, it would destroy what
little we have accomplished so
far." Nick rubbed his forehead.
"Does Karr know?"
He looked up, smiling a bit. "Yes, he does. Through me."
"What now?" Bonnie now wanted to know, he full extent of
this slowly creeping up
on her. "What if Kitt finds out?"
"He won't find out on his own. Karr will make sure of
that," MacKenzie told her
slowly. "He won't allow it for now. The moment Kitt is
stable enough we will tell
him; and Michael. But the risk that Michael leaks it when
they link deeply is too great.
We might lose Kitt forever." He sighed.
Bonnie sat down again, rubbing her eyes. "How can one
person be so cruel?" she
whispered.
"She has no conscience, Bonnie," Nick said softly and she
noted he had used her
first name. "She wants money, status, a place in society.
She never cared for her
father's lifetime achievement. She sees the numbers on her
bank account, that is all. A
golden cage, far from reality." His voice was soft now,
almost distant. "Money
does that to you. She isn't strong enough to understand
the deeper meaning behind the
Foundation; she doesn't see what her father has seen in
it. And she never saw the person
in Kitt. For her he is a collection of chips and wires."
Bonnie bristled at the description of her baby. Nick
smiled slightly.
"She never had the guts to come to us before!" Bonnie
growled. "She never
came down from her pedestal to see what we are doing! All
she sees is numbers on paper!
She has no clue what good Michael and Kitt have done!
Selling him off!" Her voice
rose. "Over my dead body!"
"She won't get him," MacKenzie promised. "Ever."
She met his hard blue eyes and saw the decision there. "I
know. Thank you for
everything. You've done so much for us...."
"I haven't done anything yet, Dr. Barstow."
She shook her head, smiling. "You helped Michael and Kitt
accept the implant; you and
Karr are protecting them from everything; you gave us a
place to stay. I think that is
something."
Nicholas actually looked embarrassed. He cleared his
throat. "Please keep this to
yourself," he finally said.
"What about Justin?" Bonnie wanted to know.
He sighed. "I trust he can shut up, but the less people
know for now, the less
slips."
She nodded. "I understand."
They sat together in silence, Bonnie still feeling the
anger gnaw away at her. If she
never saw Jennifer Knight's face again it would be too
soon! She looked over at Nicholas,
who was resting his arms on his knees, eyes closed, head
hanging between his shoulders. He
appeared infinitely tired and beaten. She knew they were
lucky to know him.
What if he hadn't been there?
What if they now had to fight for Kitt on Jennifer's
territory?
Would Kitt even be alive today if it hadn't been for the
immense amount of help Nicholas,
and Karr, had so freely given?
She didn't know.
Bonnie inhaled deeply. "I need to take a walk," she
finally said.
Nicholas looked at her and she saw him battle his
emotions. He only nodded. Bonnie rose
and made her way down the harbor road, lost in her
thoughts, trying to find a way to keep
a lid on her anger.
* * *
Devon was in his office, staring at the computer screen,
not seeing what was really on
it. His mind was miles away. He wished he could undo what
he had done; just one magic word
and it would all be okay again. But there was no such
thing. It had happened, he had to
deal with it. Simple as that.
Jennifer Knight had steamed off some more in his office
after the Semi had left, and she
had come back, screaming mad when the board had informed
her of Devon Miles' proposal. She
had raged about firing him, about firing them all, about
shutting down the Foundation and
several other things he couldn't quite remember. Most of
it had gone past him. Devon knew
the board was not happy with what happened and they were
currently investigating into the
incident. There was something, some terrible reason and
truth, lurking behind it all, and
Devon was afraid of the day he found out just why Jennifer
had ordered the tests.
Something told him Nicholas knew.
Devon was surprised by the tidal wave the events on the
test track and the subsequent
events in the garage had sparked within FLAG. Well, maybe
he wasn't. Most of the employees
had been with them for many years; they knew Michael and
Kitt, knew what Kitt was. That he
was more than a machine. When the Semi had come back,
Peter Sanders had delivered a story
about being forced to drive them somewhere remote, had
dropped them and had no idea where
they had gone from there. Jennifer had threatened him,
bribed him, threatened him again,
but he had not changed his version of what had happened.
Devon knew Sanders was lying; and
he wouldn't reveal a grain of the truth. The normal crew
of technicians and mechanics
usually repairing and handling Kitt had chosen a
spokesperson and O'Malley, no less, had
barged in and demanded to know what 'in the name of bloody
hell is going on here'. The
Irishman had told Devon in no uncertain terms that if one
of the techs Jennifer Knight had
brought along showed up ever again, FLAG could start
planning a funeral.
Everyone was behind Michael and Kitt; everyone but Devon
Miles. He had been the traitor.
He had let them do this to Kitt. Michael had been gone on
a mission, Jennifer had taken
the chance and Devon had let her do what she wanted. He
was a coward.
Devon buried his head in his hands. He would see that Kitt
would never be put into such a
situation ever again, even if it was the last thing he
would ever be able to do; even if
it got him fired. Maybe after this was over he should
resign anyway.
His computer beeped all of a sudden, jolting him out of
his thoughts. A message had just
come in. Devon opened the mail, read it and then went to
log himself into the FLAGNet chat
room. He found Nicholas already waiting, logged in under a
screen name.
<SFX>> What do you want, Devon?
<Dmiles> Jennifer has been here. She had a head-on
with the board. They are still
considering my request, but it looks like they are in my
favor rather than hers.
<SFX> And?
<Dmiles> They want a complete report on what
happened on the test track. She is
giving them her version. I need Kitt's files.
<SFX> You don't seriously expect me to ask him to
file his nightmares, now do you?
<Dmiles> No. I want a report what happened from
another source than me. I need the
files.
The cursor blinked for a long time and silence emanated
from the other side of this
heavily secured chat room.
<SFX> I'll see what I can do. Don't count on it.
<Dmiles> They are not happy with what happened here.
We can use this against her,
Devon argued.
<SFX> I thought they had sanctioned the tests.
<Dmiles> Like me, they didn't know what she was
really up to. And even now I still
don't know the true reasons.
Devon waited. He hoped his words might trigger an
explanation from Nick's side. He
suspected the ex-agent knew what had happened.
<SFX> Ask her.
<Dmiles> She is not in the mood to talk. Screaming
is more her metier.
Another silence.
<Dmiles> I know you know what her reasons were.
Nick, tell me! I have a right to
know! And maybe I can use it against her.... can turn the
board to see the truth!
<SFX> I will think about it.
<Dmiles> Nick!
Silence.
<Dmiles> How is Kitt?
<SFX> Suffering, was the cruel answer.
Devon briefly closed his eyes, then he typed,
<Dmiles> Would you let me talk to Michael?
<SFX> No.
<Dmiles> Nick, please....
<SFX> No.
<Dmiles> Why?
<SFX> When Kitt is out of danger, then you can talk.
Right now anything but support
will kill both of them.
Devon inhaled deeply.
<Dmiles> I understand
<SFX> I don't think you can.
Nick signed off without another word and left Devon
staring at the screen. Suddenly the
channel dissolved and he was back in the normal mail
system of FLAGNet. Nick had destroyed
the connection and kicked him out. No trace of the
conversation would be found anywhere.
Devon knew he had been right. There was a dark secret
behind the tests, and Nick knew it.
He had to be up in front of the board in another two hours
and hopefully MacKenzie could
provide him with something to use against Jennifer.
Whatever it was.
*
Nick looked at the blank screen, thinking about what
Devon had asked for. He swiftly
hacked into FLAGNet's personal sites and went into
Jennifer Knight's files, looking for
the latest entries. And he found that what Devon had told
him was true. The board was
coming together for a first hearing, and Jennifer was not
very pleased. To say it frankly,
she was pissed off. Good.
But the problem remained. They wouldn't be able to pull
all the files out of Kitt because
it meant exposing him to his nightmares once more. Devon
would give the board his version
and Jennifer would argue her case; and the board didn't
know about the military sell-off.
There had been no word about it anywhere except Jennifer's
files. He could give Devon
access to the truth. He might even have to do it.
Karr rumbled softly and he turned to look at his partner.
"What?" he asked
softly. "You think we should trust Devon as far as that?"
"I have never trusted anyone," Karr replied coldly. "But
if he wins against
her, Kitt will belong only to Michael Knight."
"I know. But will the board see past what kind of profit
it would gain the
Foundation?"
"Without Kitt and the Knight Two Thousand there will be no
more FLAG; they will lose
their flagship and operative in one. They would cease to
function," Karr said
reasonably.
Nicholas smiled. "Yes, I know." He put his feet up,
thoughtfully gazing into the
distance. "Devon is trying to help; I believed him when he
said he wanted to redeem
himself. The question remains, can he win?"
"It is his fight. We have our own," Karr said, sounding
almost philosophical.
Nick chuckled, then grew serious. He would send out the
file about what Jennifer had
planned and see what would happen next. Michael still
didn't know about it and it was
better this way. There was time for this later. With a few
swift key strokes he had the
data on its way; then he logged off.
"How is he?" he asked as he shut down the laptop.
"Slightly distressed but reasonably calm."
"Good."
At least some positive development lately. Kitt was
quieting down and Michael with him.
But when would the next storm hit them?
* * *
Michael was in the kitchen upstairs, staring into the
open refrigerator, eyes holding a
distant expression. He had showered and shaved after a
short rest in a real bed, and he
felt better now, but not yet well. Kitt was a frightened
presence in his mind, though
calmer than before. Michael was relieved, but still
worried, though his worry was going
another way.
Someone joined him in front of the refrigerator and cast a
quizzical look into the
well-stocked interior. "It won't say 'Zuuul', you know,"
Nick said
good-humoredly.
Michael had to grin involuntarily, then got out a soda and
closed the door.
"Kitt's okay?" MacKenzie asked as he grabbed an apple and
played with it before
biting into it.
"More or less. He calmed down, but the nightmares are
still there, lurking, waiting
for him to let his fragile stability sway."
Nick nodded, sitting down opposite his friend,
thoughtfully chewing on the apple.
"Nick?"
He looked up. "Yes?"
Michael hesitated. He had wanted to breach the subject
ever since he had become aware of
it, but either he had been lost in Kitt's pain or he had
been too exhausted. Now was the
first time since he had the energy and he just had to
start.
"You know what is happening between Kitt and Karr?" he
wanted to know, voice
even.
A cheek muscle in the ex-agent's cheek twitched. He was
silent for a while, the nodded.
"Yes. But it's nothing new."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that the link has always been there... in a way. I
told you Karr can feel
Kitt, his pain, that he is aware of him. The private
channel connected them."
"But not like this!" Michael protested. "He is there!
Inside Kitt!"
Anger trickled into his voice.
Sadness washed over Nick's face. "I know. Something has
... developed. I'm not sure
when. Maybe when Kitt lost it and Karr jumped in; maybe
before that; maybe later." He
met Michael's angry eyes. "He won't hurt him, Michael."
"I wouldn't be so sure of that!"
The words were out before Michael had any time to think
what was going around in his mind,
and he regretted it immediately.
Nick's features closed up, hardening. "I thought we had
cleared up the subject of
Karr being a killer, out to harm you or anyone of FLAG,"
he said coldly.
"Nick, I didn't mean...."
"Oh, yes, you did. I know you are still afraid of him. I
thought it was
subconsciously, but maybe it is rising again; maybe it
never was subconscious. He knows it
too. He knows Kitt fears him!" Nick shook his head. "And
he still helps
him."
Michael felt ashamed. "Listen, I .... yes, I am afraid of
him, but mainly because
he... he could hurt Kitt when he comes this close. It's...
he is ... he is not like
Kitt."
"No, he is not like Kitt. His ways are harsher, more
cruel, more painful. He is not
gentle, he is not warm, but he can be." Nicholas fixed his
stare on the man opposite.
"And he would never hurt Kitt. He can't. Not anymore.
Those days are the past,
Michael. Karr will do anything to protect his brother, to
protect you, and hurting either
of you would never even enter his mind!"
Michael remembered the fierce protectiveness, how Karr had
even shortly denied him, Kitt's
partner, access to the injured AI. And he remembered what
had reflected back into Karr:
the pain and nightmares, the horror and agony. This was no
one-sided attempt of Karr to
claim something, to hurt something; he was receiving as
much of the agony as Michael was.
And he was suffering it silently.
"Why? Why now?" he whispered.
"Kitt needs him now, Michael. He never has before. Not
like this. The private channel
was there through the simple fact that they are brothers;
they are alike. But the link....
I'm not totally sure about this." Nicholas shrugged.
"Don't fear it. Karr will
never intrude upon your link with Kitt. He is as much
afraid of this development as you
are, maybe even more so."
"Why? This is not like a neuro implant connection....."
A humorless smile crossed Nick's lips. "No, it isn't, but
it brings him and his soul
closer to someone else. Someone who is afraid of him;
someone who is linked to a partner
who shares this feeling. And he is afraid he hurts Kitt
with his presence."
Michael sighed deeply. "Is he?"
"You have to decide," Nick answered calmly. "The link is
still fragile and
transmits both ways. Karr is careful not to flood Kitt,
but he accepts everything coming
from Kitt."
Michael still didn't like it. He had felt Karr's presence
when Kitt's nightmare had almost
blinded him, had fried his mind and threatened to drown
him completely. The other AI, the
darker one as he like to think of him, had been there. He
had briefly brushed past it, had
felt the shivers of coldness, the hardness, the rough
edges.
And the care. A strange kind of care, not like a human's,
not as warm, but loving and
gentle in its own way.
"If you want me to, I will ask him to retreat," Nick's
voice interrupted his
thoughts.
"I.... would he?" Michael asked, confused.
"I'm not sure, but I could ask. I know he wouldn't be
happy, maybe disappointed. But
before you make the decision, talk to Kitt about it. It's
his decision too. If you are
afraid of him, Karr will retreat. He doesn't want to
hurt....."
It was an alien thought, one interrupted by visions of
their past encounters, when Karr
had been hell-bent on killing him and Kitt, intermixing
with what had happened in the last
few months. Of what had happened in the last few days. And
he looked into Nick's eyes, saw
the sincerity there.
No, Karr didn't want to hurt, but did he know when he was
too close, when one more step
might mean pain for Kitt?
*
Michael sat inside the car, not knowing how to start.
Kitt was as stable as he hadn't
been since the test track and he was recuperating, though
slowly and painfully. The
nightmares were not yet over and until they finally knew
what the reasons had been for
these inhuman tests, there was no real healing possible.
The Stealth had been here until
Michael had arrived and Karr had suddenly removed his
presence, silently rolling away.
Michael reached out, gently caressed Kitt's presence,
showing him he was close, asking.
//michael?//
//you okay//
A hard to describe emotional wave hit him, but he read it
as still being confused,
hurting, wondering why.
//can we talk? really talk?//
Hesitation, then acknowledgment. Kitt had not spoken more
than a few words outside the
neuro link and only to his driver.
"Kitt?" Michael now asked aloud into the sound-proof
interior of the TransAm.
"Yes, Michael?"
How should he start? Was there a way to start at all? No,
not really. Maybe he was
intruding upon something he had no right to intrude upon,
but he cared about Kitt, was
worried, needed to know.
"Kitt.... I know you have a ... a link to Karr," he now
said. Kitt shivered
once, but it wasn't fear. Fear felt different. "I know
it's running deep; maybe
deeper each day. I felt him with us... before." Another
shiver. It was an undefined
emotion, one there was no human equivalent for. "What I
want to know... what I want
to ask.... is his presence hurting you?"
Kitt was silent for a while. "Hurting?" he then echoed
softly.
"Does Karr's presence frighten you?" Michael wanted to
know. "Is it painful
for you to have him this close? Is he intruding?"
"It is strange to be so close to him," his partner
confessed after another
lengthy silence. "I was never aware he was there, but he
always was....in a way. We
always had the private channel, but it was one-sided; he
knew me; I never knew him."
"And the link?" Michael pressed on.
"It is new."
"Does it hurt?"
"Not in the terms of human pain," Kitt answered
thoughtfully. "He.... it's
strange. Just strange to have him so close by."
"Do you want him to leave, Kitt?" Michael asked the
all-important question.
"Leave?"
"I talked to Nick and he said he would ask Karr to block
the link, to...." He
didn't get any further.
Panic surged up through the implant and Kitt whimpered.
//nonononono no
leave no leave//
"Kitt!"
He reached out and touched the sensor, shocked by the
violent reaction.
//no leave not alone not
alone!//
His distress was obvious now, overwhelming Michael who had
not thought it possible.
"You wouldn't be alone! I'm here! Kitt!"
Michael met the frightened presence, soothed it, calmed it
down, searching for a reason
for the panic. It couldn't be that Karr was this close to
Kitt, now could it? Up until a
few months ago Kitt had been an enemy! Even when Nick had
agreed to stay at the mansion to
help train the implant Karr had been a dark shadow out of
the past!
"What's wrong, partner? Is he doing something to you?" he
asked, stroking the
internal sensor.
"Helps me," Kitt whimpered. "With me!"
"We are talking about Karr, right?"
Kitt whimpered again and projected another torrent of
emotions. //no
nightmares no pain
helping suffering with me//
Michael knew Kitt projected into Karr through the private
channel and like Nick he
suspected that had been the moment the link had been born.
"Why is he doing it?" he thought out aloud.
//help no hate won't let
me talk to me//
Michael suddenly understood. Karr wouldn't let Kitt hate
those who had done this to him.
He wouldn't let Kitt change from what he was, a gentle
being.
"You want him to stay?"
"Yes," Kitt whispered. "He.... it's not like you, Michael.
It never can
be."
Michael smiled, touched. "I know," he murmured, continuing
to caress the sensor.
"But he understands. Michael, I hurt him through....
through the link, the
nightmares... Can't control them. And he stays." Awe was
in his partner's voice and
in a way Michael was awed too. "Were you afraid he is
harming me?" Kitt asked.
"Yes, Pal, I was," Michael admitted freely. "I was afraid
he would severely
hurt you. He is... I wouldn't describe him as a gentle
creature."
"He can be," Kitt said ever so softly.
Michael was silent, wrapping his arms around Kit's
steering wheel, drawing closer, drawing
Kitt into his embrace. "Is he always with you?"
"No. Only when I need.... help. Sometimes just to tell me
I'm safe. We talk. It is so
new for me, but ...nice to talk. He was close to me before
you came...." Kitt
stopped. "He left."
Michael sighed. Nicholas must have told his partner to
give them some privacy. "And
you feel alone?"
"Not really. I can sense him, but... he is blocking." Kitt
hesitated. "I
would feel alone if the block stayed," he then confessed.
Michael tried to understand. It was a difficult concept
but looking back at the last few
days, maybe not. Karr was there for Kitt, protective,
physically close, attacking whoever
threatened the severely injured AI inside the TransAm.. He
would go through hell and did
on a regular basis if what he felt through the link was as
bad as what Michael was privy
to through the implant.
"I'm just afraid he might accidentally make everything
worse, Kitt," he finally
murmured. "That he will hurt you in any way."
"No, he won't. Never will." Kitt sounded confident in
that. "He has
changed."
"Through you?"
"I don't know."
Michael sighed and closed his eyes, holding Kitt near.
Kitt snuggled into the embrace,
feeling content and warm for the moment.
*
The sun was high in the sky, cutting through the clouds,
warming the cobble-stone quay
road, reflecting off the lazily moving water. The Stealth
was parked next to the quay
wall, silent and dark. Nicholas sat on his partner's warm
hood, legs curled under him,
staring out over the water. In the distance a ship could
be seen as it moved into the new
harbor several miles west of here and above sea gulls drew
their circles. The partners had
left the warehouse to be physically away from Kitt and
Michael, to give both of them a
chance to talk. It was very nice outside, calm and quiet,
a change to the stress living
inside the walls of Nick's home.
Karr felt like waiting for a sentence to be passed on him.
He felt betrayed in a way,
though he had no idea who the one betraying him was. Nick
was close to him, helping,
calming, understanding. Karr had not liked cutting the
fragile link that abruptly or even
leaving Kitt in the garage. When Justin had left Karr had
moved closer to his brother
again, his prow touching Kitt's fender gently.
"I would never harm him," Karr finally said softly.
Nick rested the palm of one hand on the heated metal. "I
know," he said gently.
"And Kitt knows that too. Michael is just trying to
protect him. Human
instinct."
Karr fell silent again.
"I understand him in a way," Nick said calmly. "I would do
it too."
His partner sent out a quizzical probe, confused by the
confession. Nick's mouth twitched
into a faint smile. "Michael will defend Kitt against
everything he views as a
danger. I would do the same if our roles were reversed, if
you had been in Kitt's
place."
Karr struggled with the emotions he felt and finally shut
them out. He had handled too
many of them lately and it was getting increasingly more
difficult. "I should have
stayed away," he simply stated.
Another smile passed over Nick's lips. "You couldn't have,
even if you had wanted to.
He is your brother; you had to help him. You cared." He
leaned back against the
windshield, enjoying the warmth from both the Stealth and
the sun. "And it isn't such
a bad thing to care, now is it?"
Karr rumbled uneasily. Nicholas was right when he said he
had been unable to stay away.
Not when the full extent of the psychological damage Kitt
had received had been revealed;
when the hatred and the feeling of betrayal had started.
There had been only this one way,
this option; nothing else. He cared about Kitt. Maybe not
as much as he cared about
Nicholas, but he cared. His feelings were different, but
also the same. It was hard for
him to describe what exactly he felt for Kitt. It was love
in a strange way no human could
understand; but Kitt understood. Frightened as he was,
injured, vulnerable and in pain, he
understood.
"And still he fears me," Karr said levelly.
Nick sighed. "Yes and no. You have to let it happen, see
how it develops."
"The link grows stronger," Karr muttered thoughtfully.
"With each contact,
each day....."
His driver nodded. "And how do you feel about it?"
Karr was silent. "I don't know," he finally confessed.
"Really?" Nick probed.
The sea gulls cried high above and the horn of a large
ship sounded, disturbing the
silence.
"I.... I care about him," Karr finally said, sounding
disturbed and slightly
distraught. "I would do anything to keep him from hurting
more. If it means cutting
the link.... I'd do it."
"Could you cut it?" Nicholas inquired carefully.
"I don't know. It would be difficult. It would require
blocks."
"Blocks you could create?"
"Yes."
"But the private channel would stay?"
"No. I could close it down too, deactivate it." Karr's
voice sounded pained.
Nicholas watched two sea gulls lazily circle overhead,
then fly on, crying softly to each
other. Karr's distress at the thought of separation from
someone he had just gotten to
know was washing into him. He was starting to appreciate
Kitt's presence and maybe the
other AI was influencing him.
<And maybe I'm influencing him. I wouldn't want that. I
don't want him to change>
"I know," Nick murmured. "I don't think you would be able
to. Kitt is his
own personality. In the early days maybe, but his self is
strong."
Karr lapsed into silence once more. Yes, Kitt's
personality was strong, deeply locked into
his CPU and in no danger to be influenced by his harsher
brother. But right now he was
weak, vulnerable, in need of help.
"I want to help," Karr said almost to himself. "And if it
means cutting the
link .... I will do it."
Nick drew closer and Karr fed off his partner's presence.
They had grown very close since
they had rejoined the Foundation to teach Michael and Kitt
about the link. Through the
training, they were training too, and Karr felt how much
Nicholas really meant to him. His
sanity, his life, his existence, his stability; and he
meant the same for Nicholas. They
were very much alike in many ways, created to serve a
greater course, Nicholas with the
training and knowledge to kill, to infiltrate, to
sabotage, to assassinate, to destroy;
Karr living out his programs that soon led him a similar
way. Wilton Knight had brought
them together and the fusion had started slowly. It was
not yet done, Karr had realized
when they had accepted Devon Miles' offer; it was still
happening.
And now he was also creating a link to Kitt. It was
involuntary and completely out of his
control, but it was there. He would feel alone without
Kitt, but he would do it, suffer
it, if it meant the other AI would survive.
Nick and Karr stayed together in companionable silence for
a long time. It was relaxing to
be here, away from it all, but subconsciously both worried
about what the decision would
be.
*
Kitt tried to find Karr through the now more familiar
link, but he came upon the first
block even before he had a chance to get even halfway
through. Fear swamped him. Could it
be Karr had already cut the link? He couldn't have....! He
had just left to give Michael
and Kitt some privacy,....right?
Panic hit him.
He didn't really know why. Karr had always been on the
other side, the enemy, and even
after they had found out that he was still alive, alive
once again, this time bonded to a
human and actually doing something good -depending on your
definition of Nick's cases -
Kitt had not lost his subconscious fear of the 'killer
machine'.
Until lately.
Until the tests.
He shivered.
Karr was suddenly there for him, supporting, protecting,
defending.... And he asked for
nothing in return. There was no scheme behind his devotion
to help Kitt, no darker
meaning; he was simply there. Kitt understood Michael's
worries because eight months could
not erase eight years of having the darker memories of a
more malevolent Karr, but ....
but.....
They were linked. First there had been the private
channel, then the link had developed.
Kitt knew only half of what he had done, of what had
flooded through him, of what had then
hit Karr; but he knew the other AI had never run. He had
stayed. As a friend.
<_Karr?
There was no reply. The block stayed firmly in place,
giving Kitt and Michael privacy, one
they had used for their talk, but now the silence out of
this area of Kitt's CPU was
almost deafening. A hollow feeling emanated from the cut
link, a kind of phantom pain.
Kitt would not have felt it so acutely if he hadn't been
in need for any outside contact
beside his own systems. Interfacing with his peripheral
systems, with audio and visual,
was not an option right now. He took most of what he
needed from the links. Plural. Yes.
<_Karr?!
Kitt pushed against the block, the fledgling panic
developing in leaps. He couldn't
seriously have left him alone, now could he?
Karr was lost in his thoughts, wrapped slightly around
Nick's softly pulsing thoughts,
listening to his partner's even breathing and the echoes
of his mind inside his own CPU.
He enjoyed those rare moments of an intimacy no one would
ever understand. In these
moments he and Nick were close without actually touching
through the implant, and it was a
beautiful feeling.
One interrupted by a shudder emitting from the blocked
link. Karr turned his attention
away from his partner and regarded the block. Should he
take it away already? He didn't
want to intrude, though his self was screaming to feel the
echoes from Kitt once more,
whatever echoes they were. He heard a soft, desperate
calling, muted by the block, but the
panic was clearly audible.
He tore down the program keeping them separate and was
nearly overrun by his brother.
Kitt's presence fleetingly brushed over him and it was
strangely like a very light hug,
accompanied by relief, then he retreated back to his side
of the link.
<_Kitt? Are you all right?
His concern was out before he had time to swallow it. Karr
was still not at ease with the
more gentle emotions he had developed ever since he had
accepted Nicholas as his partner.
<_Why did you block me?
<_You and Michael needed time alone. I am an intruder.
<_No! Kitt protested. <_No....
<_I am, Karr repeated, voice hardening. <_The place
I touched twice now... it is
your place with Michael Knight. I am an intruder there and
it will always cause you pain
whenever I enter.
<_You helped.....
<_Yes, maybe. Karr sounded embarrassed and clamped it
down. <_It's still not my
place.
Silence settled between them. Finally Kitt reached out and
touched his brother. <_No
more blocks? he asked, voice full of hope.
<_Is your driver at ease with it? Karr asked back.
<_Michael accepts. I explained to him you are not
hurting me.
<_I *am* hurting you, Kitt, Karr interrupted rudely.
<_I have every time I came too
close.
<_You jolted me out of the horror of my nightmares,
Kitt corrected.
Karr was silent. He didn't want Kitt to feel obliged to
uphold he link because of some
falsely understood gratefulness. Kitt seemed to feel what
he was thinking and came even
closer.
<_I would feel alone, he confessed softly.
The other AI eyed the presence so close to him nervously.
<_I will stay, he finally
said and felt Kitt's relief once more. <_Outside, he
added.
Kitt moved back, and Karr felt his happy little smile. He
was touched by it, as well as
worried, but right now the positive emotions were
dominant.
He settled back in his own CPU, feeling warmth and
content.
"You want to go back?"
The voice from the real world intruded into the feelings
and annoyance hit his driver.
Nick only grinned. He was one very infuriating human
sometimes!
"Yes," Karr grated.
He felt Nicholas slip off his hood, briefly disappointed
as the warm weight was no longer
there, then he started his engine and drove slowly back
into the warehouse.
Michael looked up as he saw the Stealth hesitantly move
in. He touched Kitt, who only
sent a wave of shivering relief that Karr would come back.
Nicholas was walking in behind
them, smiling, hands stuffed in his pockets, watching the
scene. Michael got out of the
car.
Karr stopped a few feet away from Kitt. Waiting? Watching?
Asking for permission? Michael
was unsure. He felt Kitt with him, as relaxed as was
possible in his state, and then Karr
close in noiselessly. He parked beside Kitt, the passenger
side mirror almost touching
Kitt's. His engine died down and silence settled over the
garage.
Michael watched the two cars for one more minute, then he
walked over to where Nicholas
stood. Kitt was relaxed, almost as relaxed as he normally
was, content and happy for now.
It was weird that Karr was partially responsible for that.
Nick now gave him a quick
smile.
"Are you okay?" he inquired.
"Yeah, I think so. Just have to get used to.... that...."
MacKenzie's eyes wandered to the two black cars. He
nodded. "We all do."
With that he shrugged and walked off to the stairs,
disappearing upstairs.
*
Michael stood under the shower, enjoying the water on his
skin. Showers always relaxed
him. He felt that no matter where he was, no matter what
was going on outside, when he was
standing in a shower, he was in his own private world.
Until now. Up until all this had
happened, he and Kitt had worked out how to give each
other privacy, when to link and when
to keep the blocks in place. But at the moment, Michael,
and Karr, were Kitt's only means
of input, and although Nick had suggested that Michael
block his partner now and again,
just to give himself some breathing space, Michael had not
yet been able to find the
courage to do so. Kitt was curled up in the back of his
mind, sometimes sleeping,
sometimes just resting, but always there, held in
Michael's mental embrace. Never alone.
//Michael....//
Michael started, surprised for some reason by Kitt's
sleepy voice in his mind. He must
have sent back surprise, because he felt a shudder as
Kitt's reply.
//here partner okay//
//wet //
There was surprise in Kitt's tone now as he spoke the
single word. Michael laughed. //hey,
this is my shower//
He closed his eyes, giving Kitt a gentle hug. Now he was
concentrating slightly more on
the presence, he could sense Kitt was practically asleep,
murmuring as he dozed. His
presence felt warm and snug, and it made Michael smile.
//go back to sleep//
Michael waited for a few moments, and then opened his eyes
again. The implant had
frightened him to death when it had first been activated.
Now the thought of being without
it scared him more. He was never alone. Even when things
had been right and normal, a
million years ago before Jennifer had performed her damn
tests, when the blocks were in
place, Michael did not feel alone. Kitt was always there,
sometimes further away than at
other times, but always there.
He washed the shower gel from his skin, and turned the
water off, stepping out of the
shower to towel himself dry. Once he had dressed again, he
padded through into the first
floor living area to find something to eat. Glancing down
over the railing he could see
Justin making slight adjustments to the readings from
Kitt's engine. Sitting silently
beside his partner, Karr was still parked, wing mirror to
wing mirror with Kitt. Michael
wondered briefly if Kitt could feel that physical touch,
and whether he liked it.
Reminding himself to ask the AI about it one day, Michael
headed for the kitchen.
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