| Will
                goes back to
                work. For the first week he's teaching and Hannibal only
                sees him twice, both occasions
                are at his home for dinner. On both occasions Will stays
                over. He wonders if
                Alana knows. Hannibal
                goes to see
                Jack before Will returns to his classroom. �I
                won�t let you
                destroy him,� he tells him, and Jack looks at him
                steadily with a hint of fear
                in his eyes. It feels good to finally see it there. �What
                is he to you?�
                Jack goes on the defensive. �Patient. Friend. More?� �What
                he is to me is
                none of your business.� �I
                care for Will.� �You
                put him behind
                bars.� �The
                evidence....� �He�s
                the sweetest
                man I know.� �You
                provided most
                of the evidence!� �I
                did no such
                thing. I simply gave you my point of view. It was yours
                to dismiss, to
                disprove.  If
                I think for one second that
                you�re drawing him back down the same path that almost
                killed him, I will
                report you for misconduct.� He
                waits a week
                before he kills Chiltern. During Will�s time at the
                institution, the good
                doctor treated him to petty torments for no better
                reason than his own
                amusement. Small but resentful punishments for things
                Will wasn't guilty of,
                such as Hannibal's visits, things he wasn�t able to
                prevent but which he
                definitely didn�t like. Jealousy is an ugly trait. Will
                was subject to small
                indignities at Chiltern's hands and Hannibal made
                certain he knew for who and
                what he was dying, made sure he suffered similar
                humiliations before he 
                took his last breath. He
                made sure too
                that Will had a firm alibi in the form of Jack Crawford
                for the time of the
                killing but couldn�t resist leaving the body
                theatrically placed in the
                doctor's office, splayed over his own desk for his
                secretary to find the
                following morning, split open lengthways with his liver
                removed and his
                castrated penis between his lips, marinating in a sauce
                of his own bodily
                fluids. He does it because he wants to revenge those
                things Will could not, the
                things he dealt with during his incarceration, but also
                he does it because he
                wants to see what Jack will do, and what Will will do. Crawford's
                tenacity
                is breathtaking. He pulls Will out of a lecture to take
                him to the crime scene.
                He does at least have the manners to reassure him that
                he knows this has
                nothing to do with him, and says he's sorry for making
                Will look. This Hannibal
                finds out very late that same night when Will drops by
                at his home for a night
                cap and to make love. He seems fine, calm and very much
                in control, unsettled
                by the scene in Chiltern�s office but not upset about
                it. Hannibal wants to ask
                him how it made him feel, seeing the man who set those
                little tortures to make
                his stay at the institute even more unpleasant than it
                needed to be. But he
                doesn�t, decides to wait until they have a more formal
                session in his office
                because despite the change in their relationship Will
                remains his unofficial
                patient. Hannibal is nothing if not possessive about
                certain things. However
                it made him
                feel, it hasn�t put in dent in his ardour. That night,
                Will is as passionate
                always and they don't get to sleep until the early hours
                of the morning.
                Hannibal makes coffee and pastries and Will sits down at
                the bar in the kitchen
                to eat before he kisses Hannibal goodbye. 'Come
                for dinner
                tonight,' Hannibal suggests and from the open doorway of
                his kitchen, Will nods
                and smiles. 'Ill
                bring the
                wine,' he offers, and Hannibal thanks him. 'What would
                you say goes best with
                liver?' He
                doesn't move.
                It's difficult enough to keep breathing, he can't seem
                to find his voice and he
                doesn't know what to say if he could. Will just smiles. 'Maybe
                a Merlot. Ill
                see you later.' He
                closes the door
                and Hannibal still can't move to follow him, to... what?
                Reason with him? Kill
                him?  He
                hears his front door open and
                close and carefully puts down the plate he's been
                holding. If he isn't going to
                stop Will, and he's so far from being capable of harming
                him badly enough to do
                that, it leaves only three options open to him. Suicide
                isn't
                something he will ever consider and running away is for
                men who can't think
                their way around a problem. If Will knows then somewhere
                along the line he has
                made a mistake and there will be evidence somewhere. He
                has no choice but to face
                this head on and wait for the right opportunity to side
                step onto a different
                path. He cleans up from breakfast, takes his time with
                the dishes, thinking it
                would be a good domestic scene for the FBI agents to
                find him in, put that tiny
                doubt in their minds, but no one comes bursting in
                through the front door.  He
                calls the office
                and cancels his appointments for the day, he doesn't
                want to be arrested in
                front of a patient. He asks if anyone has been looking
                for him or asking for
                him but Mona says no. She sounds the same as always,
                there are no stresses in
                her voice to alert him to danger. He
                puts on some
                music and picks up a book but he is too distracted to
                read. He'll miss Will, he
                realises, more than he�ll miss anything else in his
                life, with the obvious
                exception of his liberty.  Around
                eleven he
                hears a single siren approaching the house and steels
                himself for the unwelcome
                invasion but the car passes by, doesn't stop, continues
                passed and fades from
                his ears.  He
                goes for a walk
                at lunchtime and nothing seems suspicious or out of
                place. He eats at a perfect
                little cafe on the corner of the park and amuses himself
                watching as they pass
                by. Maybe it�s taking time to put together the right
                size team that Will feels
                is enough to capture him. Maybe by warning him, Will is
                giving him the chance
                to get away. At least in the asylum Will would have
                access to him if he wants
                it. He won't run. And if there are other arrangements he
                should be making prior
                to his arrest, he can't think what they are. He
                returns to the
                house but no one is waiting for him. He makes a pot of
                tea and tries again to
                read. Finally he takes up a pencil and draws from memory
                a sketch of the Duomo
                in Florence. Maybe they will let him hang it on the wall
                of his cell in place
                of a view. At
                just after six he
                hears a key in the front door and looks up. There are no
                red and blue lights at
                the windows, no shouting of instructions or arming of
                weapons. Instead, the
                living room door opens and there's just Will holding a
                bottle of red wine and
                looking at him in an odd way.  'Am
                I early?� Hannibal
                can�t do
                anything but stare at him. He opens his mouth but finds
                he has no idea what he
                wants to say. Finally, as Will slips into the room and
                puts the wine on the low
                table in front of the couch, he decides on the direct
                approach. �Where
                are the FBI
                agents, Will?� His
                fingers linger
                on the top of the bottle and a small sad smile touches
                his lips. Then he raises
                his head and looks at Hannibal and he knows to his
                abject relief that no one is
                coming.�  �Langley?�
                 �You�re
                playing
                games.� Will�s
                eyebrows
                raise and he can read the implication: look who�s
                talking. He picks up the
                bottle he�s bought. �Why
                don�t I pour us
                a drink?� He
                takes the wine to
                the kitchen and returns less than a minute later with
                two glasses, the cork
                gone from the neck. He hands Hannibal a glass and sits
                down in the armchair
                opposite the couch on which Hannibal has been sitting
                and drawing. �You�ve
                been sitting
                here all day, waiting for the FBI?� he asks, interested,
                and Hannibal takes a
                sniff of the red wine. It�s good, expensive; it�s a
                bottle Will put thought
                into buying. �I
                went out for
                lunch,� he replies. Will
                takes a sip of
                his drink and it occurs to Hannibal that he could be
                wearing a wire but he
                dismisses the idea almost immediately. Will, bless him,
                wouldn�t deceive him in
                that way. He would rather just call Jack in to pick him
                up based on suspicion
                and get the truth out of Hannibal simply by asking him
                for it. �What
                made you think
                the FBI would be coming?� �I
                believe that�s
                what you implied before you left this morning.� Putting
                down his
                glass, lacing his fingers, Will takes a deep breath.
                �Why did you kill Dr
                Chiltern? And please, do me the favour of not insulting
                me by lying.� Hannibal
                decides not
                to tell the truth either. �I didn�t like him.� Will
                smiles
                hesitantly. �I didn�t either.� He
                can�t resist. �Then
                maybe I killed him for you.� The smiles vanishes. �Why
                haven�t you told
                Crawford?� �Because
                they would
                very likely put you in the same cell I�ve just got out
                of and I wouldn�t wish
                that on my worst enemy.� �You
                think I�m your worst
                enemy?� Will
                looks up. �Are
                you?� It�s
                the trust and
                pleading in those eyes that has the capability of
                flooring him as nothing else
                ever has. He�s certain Will isn�t aware of how much he
                reaches out to him when
                he looks at him like that. Hannibal shakes his head.
                �Not anymore.� �You
                framed me. Then
                you freed me.� He looks confused. �Why?� �Because
                I imagined
                it was my plan for you. And it was for a time. But when
                I saw you behind those
                bars I realised I was wrong.  Tell me,
                Will, why aren�t you angry?� �Oh,
                I am. I�ve been
                angry for two days. I knew yesterday when I saw
                Chiltern�s body. I stepped back
                and saw everything, saw you making him suffer, saw you
                take his liver to cook
                it for me as some sort of apology.� �Last
                night, you
                didn�t say anything. We made love....� �Because
                I love
                you.� He smiles in that self-effacing way that he has.
                His words steal
                Hannibal�s breath for a second but they don�t seem to be
                any kind of revelation
                to Will. Like everything terrible that�s ever happened
                to him, he just accepts
                the truth in his heart. �I should have expected that I
                would fall in love with
                a serial killer. No wonder Alana ran a mile when I
                kissed her.� Hannibal
                takes a
                sniff of the wine. It�s very, very good. �Will....� But
                he honestly doesn�t
                know what to say. He has no idea what love would even
                feel like.  �Did
                you kill them
                all? The copycats?� He nods. �Why?� �You
                know why. Now
                it�s I who am in your hands, Will.� He points this out
                very carefully. �You
                have my word that I won�t ever hurt you, or do anything
                to hurt you, again.� �I
                know better than
                to ask if you�ll stop killing.� He
                hesitates. �I
                could promise you I will... slow down. Stop hunting on
                your doorstep. Stop
                copying your cases.� �Why
                would you
                promise me that?� �Because,
                my sweet
                Will, although I�ve never actually been in love I do
                recognise many of its
                symptoms in myself when I think about you.� It�s
                worth it for
                the smile. He imagines he would do a great many things
                to see that smile. �How
                many people
                have I eaten?� he asks, and Hannibal experiences a
                shiver of excitement at the
                tone of his question. There�s a hint of revulsion but
                nothing like the level
                most people would exhibit. Moreover, Will sounds
                curious. �One
                or two. I
                honestly can�t remember, Will, but you do have a habit
                of turning up in time
                for dessert. � He
                nods, sips his
                wine and Hannibal knows what�s coming next.  �You
                killed
                Abigail.�  It�s
                his one lasting
                regret. At the time it was his pi�ce
                  de r�sistance, but he misses her, he had become fond
                  of her. Maybe if she
                  hadn�t worked it out, if she hadn�t seen through
                  him... but second thoughts
                  after the fact won�t help anyone. He hears the upset
                  in Will�s voice and blinks
                  two tears from his own eyes. �I�m
                so sorry, Will. I got carried away by the game.� He
                doesn�t need
                to act here, these are real emotions, things he isn�t
                used to feeling and it
                all stems from seeing Will standing behind those bars,
                calm and sharp and
                finally at peace. A caged animal that�s recognised it�s
                out of the reach of its
                predators. Out of Hannibal�s reach. He�s broken every
                one of his own rules to get
                Will back. Abigail was a waste and his ego is to blame
                for that. Will
                puts down his glass, swipes at his eyes with the back of
                his hand
                and sniffs. But he doesn�t leave. Hannibal can barely
                believe that. The idea
                that Will knows everything and isn�t running, isn�t
                calling Crawford, isn�t
                yelling and screaming and threatening violence on either
                of them isn�t
                something he knows what to do with. He wants to comfort,
                which is something he
                barely remember how to do and isn�t sure he should do
                under the circumstances. He�s
                the cause of
                this. Will needs to find his own cure. �Where
                do we go from
                here?� he asks quietly and to his surprise Will looks
                up. �I
                don�t want things
                to change between us.� �You
                still want me
                as your lover, despite what you know?� �I
                wanted you two
                days ago. I wanted you last night. It just goes to show
                what a twisted person I
                actually am. I know what and who you are but somehow...�
                he swallows, shakes
                his head, �somehow it makes me feel... safe.� Something
                cracks
                inside Hannibal on hearing those words, something
                breaking open. He feels a
                swell of emotion he can�t put a name to but knows
                suddenly and without a doubt
                that he will protect this man with his own life if needs
                be. God help anyone,
                including Jack Crawford, who tries to lay a finger on
                him, who draws even the
                tiniest speck of blood or puts a single tear in his eye.
                 He
                reaches between
                them and surrounds one of Will�s hands with his own.  �You
                have my word
                that I will keep you that way.� He
                doubts it�s his
                word but more the tone of his voice that brings that
                expression to Will�s face
                � the play of that smile over his closed mouth, the way
                it almost, almost
                touches his eyes.  Will�s
                fingers curl
                over his wrist and he says, �Thank you.� They
                make love
                upstairs in Hannibal�s bed and there�s a different
                quality to it then there has
                been previously. They undress one another slowly before
                Hannibal lies Will down
                on the silk comforter like a china doll and maps out his
                body, his myriad
                scars, the places on his skin where he is sensitive and
                the places he has no
                feeling at all. He pushes one of Will�s knees to the
                side and slides into his
                body with ease, keeping them as close as he can. His
                movements inside Will are
                slow and languorous as he peppers him with kisses and
                tiny nips, turning the
                whole act into some form of worship he hadn�t believed
                himself capable of until
                now.  They�re
                so close,
                Will�s hands are on his back, his cock trapped between
                their sweat-slick
                bellies, the exquisite pleasure written all over his
                face; those same
                sensations that are running along Hannibal�s nerves.
                He�s never felt more
                alive, never felt so much for anyone, all these feelings
                he has for Will. Lowering
                his head he kisses him, sliding his tongue into his
                mouth, tasting him and
                being tasted. Will�s nails scrape over his shoulder
                blades and down his back
                and he groans, arching into it before thrusting back
                inside him. His
                orgasm hits hard
                and unexpected, forehead bowed to Will�s shoulder, arms
                shaking with the effort
                of holding him up, he can feel himself pulsing inside
                Will�s body and slowly
                becomes aware of a slick stickiness on his skin that can
                only be Will�s own
                climax. It has the heat and texture of drying blood and
                he closes his eyes for
                a moment to imagine twin wounds seeping into one
                another. But it isn�t a
                violent thought. He wishes no such injury to this man
                beneath him.  He
                lets his arms
                give way and rolls half to the side, slipping out of
                Will, one leg still
                wrapped over one muscled thigh, his arm possessively
                around Will�s slim waist.
                He�s thin bordering on scrawny. He needs to eat more and
                better, needs to
                recover from his myriad ordeals with someone he trusts
                in a place he�s
                comfortable.  Hannibal
                lays his head on
                the pillow and waits for Will to look at him. The
                knowledge he now carries
                doesn�t show in his eyes and that�s good. All he sees is
                a wary happiness that
                he can work to draw out, a nervous smile that has
                nothing to do with fear and
                the beginnings of an odd sort of peace. He
                leans forward and
                kisses Will�s mouth. He isn�t sure what to say so he
                doesn�t say anything and
                Will doesn�t seem to expect or need him to. He�s certain
                that somewhere down
                the line those three words people like to use so much
                will fall from his lips
                as easily as �good morning� but he won�t say them until
                he�s certain he
                understands what they mean. He won�t insult Will by
                lying. Not ever again. In
                him he�s found a
                partner, an equal. Will won�t ever condone what he does
                but he�ll never, ever
                turn him in. He�ll trust Hannibal and in turn will
                demand trust. He�ll heal, he�ll
                grow. He�ll sleep peacefully in Hannibal�s arms and
                won�t wake in the grip of a
                nightmare or somewhere other than where he fell asleep.
                For the first time in
                his life, Hannibal will have a real friend, someone who
                knows him and sees him
                and still chooses to like him, to be in his company, to
                spend time with him. He�s
                never had someone like that in his life before. He never
                imagined he would
                have, not him. He�s always thought he was destined to be
                alone, for his path to
                cross the paths of others but never to run alongside and
                definitely never to
                share with someone. Even when he first met Will he
                didn�t imagine he had found
                a companion, a mate. A man fragile enough to interest
                him yet strong enough to
                walk with him in the dark places they both know. A man
                who is different to most
                other people, who is breaking and desperate for someone
                like Hannibal to put
                him together. Hannibal�s sorry for shattering him so
                completely before starting
                to fit the pieces back. He will make up for it. He makes
                a silent promise to Will
                as he sleeps, entangled with the man who all but
                destroyed him, murdered for
                him and fed him the trophies he took. Will�s
                ability to
                forgive can�t be infinite, but Hannibal has no interest
                in finding its limits.
                He understands that to lose him would be to kill him,
                and the world would
                indeed be a smaller, darker, sadder place without him in
                it.  He
                drifts the tips
                of his fingers through Will�s dark hair. It�s as soft as
                duck down. His long
                lashes don�t even flicker. He�s sound asleep. Utterly
                comfortable, utterly
                secure in his trust of the serial killer and cannibal
                he�s chosen to hand his
                heart to. Or, if not chosen to, at least has allowed
                himself to. If Hannibal
                believed in God, he would be sending up a prayer of
                thanks. But he doesn�t. How
                could a loving God tolerate the existence of someone
                like Hannibal amongst his
                flock? Instead he presses a chaste kiss to Will�s
                forehead before closing his
                eyes and resting. He isn�t tired, the adrenaline of the
                day and the evening is
                still in his system. In a little while he�ll rise and
                start to cook for them. Anything
                but the liver that�s cooling in his refrigerator.  It
                would be rude, he
                feels, to immediately rub Will�s face in the brutal
                honest truth of the secret
                he�s chosen to keep. He has all the time in the world to
                let him come to terms
                with it by himself. He�s not going anywhere, and neither
                is Will. |