Tony
drives from L.A. to New York in two days. He stops a
couple of times to buy gas and take a piss and once to
sleep for a couple of hours. He can survive on that.
He�s survived on that for months. He�s
left Pepper in California. There are a hundred reasons
why but when he finally pulls into the underground
parking lot he knows he�ll find one of them, the most
important one, somewhere on the higher floors of the
tower, probably still awake, probably still working
despite it being just after dawn. These last couple of
weeks � in the time since Killian was killed and
Trevor arrested - they�ve exchanged a couple of calls,
a few IMs and brief emails. But it hasn�t been enough
for either of them and he knows Bruce has been waiting
for Tony�s sake. He�s been waiting for Tony to come to
him. The
nightmares about New York are fewer now and further
between. But not everything about the war with Loki
became a nightmare. �J,
have Dum-E and Butterfingers moved to my lab.� He
kills the Audi�s engine. �Of
course. Welcome home, Sir.� He
considers that for a moment or two, shrugs and smiles.
�I guess it is now.� �Dr
Banner�s in the lab on the eighty-seventh floor.� �Did
I ask?� �You�ve
had me monitoring him since the Mandarin threat began,
Sir. I assumed.... I apologise.� �Don�t.
You�re right.� He only hesitates a moment before
climbing out of the car and stretching aching muscles,
cracking locked joints. ~ Bruce
looks up, sees him and puts down whatever he�s doing
but he doesn�t move. �Hey.� Tony
smiles. �Hey yourself.� �How...
how are you?� �I�m
good. How are you?� He doesn�t really need to ask, he
can see the tension in Bruce�s body, the way he�s
holding himself, trying to be nonchalant when he�s
anything but. �I�m....�
He shakes his head, face falling, and that�s when Tony
goes to him and gathers him up. He can feel the tiny
shivers, the minute flexing of his muscles. �Oh,
Christ, Tony....� There�s a strength in Bruce�s hold
that should be slightly terrifying but Tony just
returns it as best he can. �I was so fucking scared
for you.� There�s nothing Tony can say. He knows Bruce
heard the message he recorded for Pepper, thinks it
might have broken his heart but it was bad enough he
put Pepper in danger, he wasn�t going to broadcast his
feelings for this man, no matter how secure the
network. �I could have helped.� �I
had help.� He says it as gently as possible. �I wasn�t
alone.� He can feel Bruce�s breath against his throat. �I
would have torn him apart for hurting you.� �I
know.� He
can�t explain why he didn�t just reach out to Bruce,
to Cap, to Fury who was probably still banging his
head against the hull of the helicarrier at Tony�s
actions. Maybe it was the memory of New York, so
entwined with his feelings for Bruce. He just needed
to do something alone, to die trying or come out alive
and triumphant, to prove to himself that he was still
Iron Man, that he could still win. Now New York is
just a city again, his home, and his feelings for
Bruce are free to strengthen and grow. He thinks this
as Bruce pulls away from him, apologising, pulling
back and into himself. �Sorry.� �What
for?� �It�s
probably the last thing you need.� Tony
shrugs. �No big deal. Actually, it�s kind of nice to
know you care.� The
way Bruce looks at him steps on his heart. �You know I
do. You were the one who walked out.� It�s not an
accusation, it�s simply the truth. �I
couldn�t sleep.� �I
know. I wasn�t....� He shakes his head, and Tony
watches his gaze lower to his chest. �You did it.�
There�s awe in his tone now, his fingers reaching out
apparently of their own volition, dropping when
they�re half an inch from the front of Tony�s shirt.
With a sigh Tony makes a grab for Bruce�s hand and
brings it to his chest, unfastening the top few
buttons of his shirt with a few flicks of his fingers,
pressing Bruce�s palm against the smooth skin where
the arc reactor once sat. He lets him just feel his
heart beating for half a minute, hoping that will ease
some of the tension. �Are you...? Do you feel okay?� Tony
nods. �Better than I�ve been in a long time.� �Why
didn�t you ask for help, Tony?� He
stacks his hands on top of Bruce�s. �Something about
America?� He shrugs. �It wasn�t your fight.� �Your
life was destroyed. How is that not my fight? Not our
fight?� �It
wasn�t destroyed.� �The
Mandarin blew up your house and almost killed you.� �It
was just a house.� �What
about everything in it? Your Dad�s car? The kids?� Tony�s
touched by the things Bruce thinks of as important in
his life because they�re the things that are. He liked
the house, a lot, he�d had some good times there and
some really, really bad ones. But if he wanted he
could build another. What was in it was just stuff.
Most of it. �My
Dad�s car was already here. I had it shipped out after
the battle... I thought tinkering with it would help
like it used to but it didn�t. And I got Dum-E and
Butterfingers out. They need some repair but they�re
not exactly complex machines. Everything else... was
just stuff. I can buy more. Pepper�s okay, I�m okay.
You�re here.� �Stop
sounding so well adjusted.� Bruce makes an abortive
attempt to pull his hand back but Tony isn�t about to
let go. �You
knew I was okay, right? JARVIS kept you informed?� �He
was in and out for a bit after the house was blown,
but yeah, he kept me informed, kept promising me you
were okay or still breathing at least. In Tennessee of
all places.� �So
you were okay? Knowing I was okay?� He knows he�s
clutching at straws, trying to ease the guilt because
he knows damn well that Bruce was anything but okay
with being stuck here, worried sick, with just
snippets of updates from JARVIS. He didn�t need to say
it. �Not enough, I know. I�m sorry.� �It�ll
never be enough unless I�m with you, Tony, you know
that. The other guy could�ve helped.� �I
know.� He
takes a step forward, forcing Bruce�s arm to bend
between them. �I could have helped you against the
Mandarin.� �Funny
story about that, by the way, remind me to tell
you....� Bruce
kissing him effectively shuts him up and he echoes the
sentiment, relieved, meeting Bruce�s desperation
halfway. It
quickly becomes something else, something more. Tony�s
shirt is already half-off, Bruce frees his hand and
undoes the rest of the buttons, man-handling him until
he feels the sharp edge of a work bench at his ass. He
gets his jeans off, managing not to break off from the
kiss, and pushes up to sit on the surface, pushing
away anything that might have been in his way. Glass
smashes and metal crashes to the floor but neither of
them pay it the slightest bit of notice. Bruce is
right there with him, hands all over him as Tony gets
rid of his shirt and pants. Bruce�s
mouth finally shifts to attack Tony�s throat and he
takes the opportunity to glance about. There�s a can
of oil behind and to the left of him. He reaches for
it and flips open the cap. Bruce�s fingers close
around his dick and he moves his mouth to Bruce�s ear
to whisper, �You have to fuck me.� Bruce
gasps his breathless agreement and Tony squeezes the
oil onto his fingers, reaching around to prepare
himself before coating Bruce�s cock with the same
stuff. He balances himself on the edge of the bench,
wraps his legs around Bruce�s waist, staring at his
face. He�s been in love with the guy from before he
even met him but this is a slightly different Bruce
Banner to the one he worked with on the helicarrier
leading up to Loki�s attack, the one he brought home
after the battle, and the fact that he�s been
responsible for this shift in personality is something
he�s going to have to think about later, when the
man�s hard, thick dick isn�t pushing into his
ill-prepared but far from unwilling body. He takes a
couple of deep breaths and relaxes, clings to Bruce�s
forearms where he�s leaning on the work bench, palms
flat, fingers spread, muscles trembling with the
effort. Tony
breathes and murmurs encouragement, sitting up to bite
the soft flesh between his shoulder and his neck,
Bruce�s resulting low groan pushes him to bite harder,
to nip and kiss and lick wherever he can reach skin.
Bruce somehow wraps a hand around his dick and he
yells � actually yells � and comes hard, shaking
through it, dropping to his back to let Bruce fuck him
harder, just a couple of thrusts before he�s coming
too, quiet like always, pulling Tony up to kiss him,
wet and sloppy. Every
time they do this in the lab they agree it�s a bad
idea but it doesn�t stop them from doing it again.
There�s a wet room but it�s not really big enough for
two so they take the elevator up to Tony�s floor stark
naked and shower in his bathroom which Bruce said once
has more floor space than his first apartment. There�s
a walk-in shower big enough for an army. This is where
the tenderness happens. They stand under the water,
kissing and touching. There are no new scars. There
are no old ones either. Bruce maps the places where
they were, licks the pathways over Tony�s skin, places
he�s memorised. �Are
you immortal now?� he asks as they towel one another
dry. Tony shrugs. He honestly doesn�t know, hasn�t
been brave or stupid enough to put that to the test
which is unlike him. He�s just been enjoying being
alive. �You don�t know. So act accordingly, okay?� He
kisses the tip of Bruce�s nose and gets a thwack on
the hip with a towel. �Promise.� �I
love you, Tony. Please try to bear that in mind.� He
doesn�t say it much, so it makes the times he does say
it stick in Tony�s memory. He stops, throws his wet
towel into the Jacuzzi and kisses Bruce on the mouth,
just a press of lips, no tongue, it�s not sexy but
it�s not meant to be. The briefest of touches can set
them off and he just wants Bruce to know how much
those words mean to him, how this thing between them
isn�t only about the physical. Bruce
seems to get it. He smiles and nods and walks away,
into the bedroom where Tony watches him help himself
to Tony�s wardrobe. It�s taken months to get him this
comfortable here, Tony has a flash of worry about the
possible consequences of anything like Malibu
happening to the tower. He can only hope it�s him, and
possibly the others, not the bricks and mortar
surrounding them that�s had such a marked change on
Bruce�s outlook on life. �Is
anyone else around?� Tony asks as they make their way
through into his kitchen. JARVIS has ordered in and
the fridge is stocked. He makes waffles, smothers them
in maple syrup and they sit in the lounge and eat them
with a fresh pot of coffee. It�s barely
early enough for anyone else in the tower to be awake. �Steve�s
still living in his apartment on the eightieth floor
although he went on vacation a couple of weeks ago and
hasn�t come back yet. Fury�s presumably keeping tabs
so I�m assuming he�s okay. Clint�s here, living on
eighty-two. He makes incredible waffles, did you know
that?� Tony scowls. �He and Phil are working things
out slowly.� �Yeah?
Good.� �Well,
Clint can hold a grudge like no one I�ve ever met, but
I think he�s more angry at Fury than anyone else. They
went out on a date the other night so I guess that�s
progress.� �Clint
and Fury?� �Clint
and Phil, idiot.� �Your
sentence structuring sucks.� �Your
waffles are too heavy.� Silence
follows but it�s far from uncomfortable. When
they�re out of waffles and they�re on their second
cups of coffee, Bruce prompts him, �You said there was
a funny story about the guy who blew up your house and
tried to kill you?� Tony
rolls his eyes at Bruce�s tone but it�s okay this
morning because he�s alive and okay and here. �You�d
presumably heard of Aldrick Killian?� Bruce
nods. �When he first set up AIM there were a lot of
questions asked about how they were safe-guarding
their research and the steps they were taking to get
patents. I don�t think anyone believed he was
dangerous in the way he turned out to be, just that he
might have been cutting corners. Mind you, we all
were.� �He
was the Mandarin.� �Huh?� �There
was no international terrorist.� �The
guy with the beard?� �An
actor. Mad as a bag of cats, higher than this tower.
Rhodey almost shot him out of sheer frustration.�
Bruce�s smile wasn�t the belly laugh he�d been
expecting. �It was funny at the time.� Bruce
is looking down at his empty plate. �I�m glad Rhodey
was there with you. I�m glad you weren�t alone.� It�s
the way he says it, with just a touch of bitterness.
He�s such a lovely guy. It�s taken Tony a while to
believe that he, genius billionaire playboy
philanthropist asshole, has got this lucky. He smiles,
rolls his head over the back of the couch to look at
Bruce, then leans in to kiss his neck. He�s wearing
one of Tony�s white shirts with loose jeans and Tony�s
half-thinking about nailing him here on the couch.
�You�re gorgeous when you�re jealous.� �I�m
not jealous.� �Six
months ago you didn�t want to fight, now you�re
complaining that I didn�t call in the Other Guy?� �Six
months ago I didn�t feel this way about a guy in a
metal suit who seems incapable of not shooting his
mouth off to every bad guy that comes along, and � I
might add � the world�s media.� �I
thought there was a terrorist threat.� �When
in actual fact it was an actor and an experiment gone
wrong. Still could have called me.� �I
figured there were already enough people around that
I�d slept with.� Bruce�s expression alone is enough to
tell him what he thinks of that quip. �Sorry, but an
old flame turned up and tried to kill me too. Tied me
to an iron sprung bed with plastic zip ties.� �You
have a seriously kinky past.� Tony
leans over and bites Bruce�s earlobe. �And now I have
you.� Bruce
chuckles. �Thank you for that.� Tony
lays his head on Bruce�s shoulder and is happy when
Bruce turns slightly, gets an arm around his shoulders
and hugs him. �Seriously. I was in a bad place, you
know I was. It�s why I had to go back to Malibu. I
didn�t want to get you involved. I�ll tell you
everything tomorrow, I promise. I�ll go into so much
detail you�ll get bored and fall asleep listening. But
it was bad enough that I put Pep in danger, that I was
almost responsible for her getting killed. I couldn�t
put you in the same position.� �You
might have noticed - I am capable of taking care of
myself.� �Not
against this guy. You should have seen him at the end.
I didn�t think anything was going to stop him.� �I
could have stopped him. Well, the Other Guy could�ve
stopped him.� �I
don�t know. He might have even been too much for both
of you and if he�d managed to hurt you it would have
been bad. You didn�t see him.� �You
don�t have to protect me.� Tony
finds Bruce�s hand on his shoulder, laces their
fingers together and holds on. �I�ve only just got rid
of my New York nightmares, don�t make me imagine
more.� ~ �Did
you tell Pepper about us?� And
damn it, he knew there was something he was meant to
do when he got to Malibu. It just never came up. Of
course, it�s never likely to unless Pepper catches
them actively making out, because telling the woman in
your life that you�ve met a guy and fallen in love
with him and please is it possible to be with them
both as long as they remain on opposite coasts isn�t
really a conversation opener. Tony
looks up as casually as he�s able from the innards of
the first robot he ever made and smiles apologetically
at his lover. �Er, no. Not yet. Sorry. Why?� �I
picked up your phone this morning and she told me to
tell you that, and I quote, �the big green monster
wasn�t really necessary�� Tony
laughs. �She�s not referring to you, Grasshopper.
She�s talking about the T-Rex I had shipped as kind of
a joke.� �T-Rex?� �Yeah,
see, I bought her a twenty foot rabbit....� �You
did what?� �Like
I said, I was in a bad place. I thought she�d like it
but she didn�t. Although I secretly think she did. But
it got blown up so I wanted to send her a replacement
as a joke but they were out of rabbits so I sent a
dinosaur.� �You
sent your girlfriend a twenty foot dinosaur?� �Are
you jealous? Would you like one?� He
watches Bruce shake his head and leave the lab, and he
smiles to himself. He�s no idea how long he can keep
both of them, or what will happen when Pepper finds
out about Bruce, but every minute he spends back in
New York he knows he�s falling ever deeper in love
with the guy. Eventually something�s got to give. ~ �Were
you actively knapping?� Bruce
rubs his eyes and Tony smiles. They�ve barely slept
since he got back to New York and the reason for that
has nothing to do with nightmares. Bruce leans
forward, says something about temperament then smiles. �You
really think I�d fall asleep when you�re spilling your
most intimate thoughts?� Tony
leans forward and kisses him. ~ Four
weeks pass and Tony well and truly settles. Bruce has
more or less moved into his apartment in the tower,
even though they�ve never discussed it. At night they
sleep together and during the day they work together,
when they�re not fucking like energiser bunnies on any
surface that will hold their joint weight and on some
that, as it turns out, won�t. Tony�s never had a lab
partner before but they work in beautiful
synchronicity. They can move around one another
without a word or talk across the lab without needing
to look up. Bruce is more on his wavelength than
anyone he�s ever met and it�s like a drug, an
addiction. The more he has of it, the less he feels
able to give it up. But he�s Tony Stark, so he doesn�t
have to give it up. Dum-E
and Butterfingers are fixed, good as new and no
better. They�re not meant to be intelligent or even
useful, they are what they are, but that still doesn�t
stop Tony yelling at them from the first moment
they�re powered on. He introduces them to Bruce, tells
them they need to do the opposite of everything Bruce
says the way they do the opposite of everything he
says. In the first hour Dum-E burns six slices of
toast in rapid succession and Butterfingers breaks a
quarter-of-a-million dollar sensor. Yeah,
life�s perfect. Tony
makes his mind up one random afternoon after they�re
back from a morning briefing at SHIELD HQ. They have
dinner plans. Steve�s invited the team, such as they
are, and they think maybe he�s finally got round to
asking out that waitress who was fawning over him in
the media for weeks after the battle. Tony left New
York partly because being around the rest of them
reminded him of flying a nuke through a wormhole into
outer space before passing out and falling back to
earth. But it�s actually nice now, having them around,
sharing little bits of their lives, sharing it all
with Bruce. Life in Malibu feels like a different
country he doesn�t have any urge to return to. He�s
spoken to Pepper but their calls have become fewer,
shorter and more about work, less about sex. In
the lab he stands against a workstation with one hip
against the metal surface and his arms crossed,
watching Bruce with Dum-E and Butterfingers. They�re
helping him with an experiment that�s going to go
wrong at any moment being as Tony�s two useless robots
are both holding fragile test tubes. But Bruce�s
instructions are quiet and precise, he�s not barking
commands at them the way Tony does or expecting them
to know what he wants. Then Tony realises it isn�t an
experiment, Bruce is teaching them to work together,
one pouring the contents of his test tube into the
other�s and back again, back and forth, learning how
to co-ordinate, how to be careful. �Wow.�
It�s all Tony can think to say, and it makes Bruce
look up and smile at him in a way that makes his heart
beat faster. �All they�ve ever done for me is set me
on fire and hose me with foam.� It�s not true, Dum-E
actually saved his life once and that�s part of the
reason he rescued them from the wreckage in Malibu,
but it�s not the point. �They�re
like anything run by software,� Bruce explains
patiently and calmly, �they just need clear and
concise instructions.� He glances up at Tony
accusingly and Tony notes the look, shrugs and grins
back. �Hey,
just because I think fast....� �And
talk fast. They can�t process at the speed we do.� �You�re
amazing.� Bruce looks up at him and half-smiles in his
patented way of deflecting any kind of compliment.
�Bruce, listen...� He
holds up his hands. �Don�t, Tony. If you�re leaving
again, just leave.� Strange how the guy known for his
vanishing act is the one who�s been able to stay put
all this time. �I�m
not leaving.� He walks over slowly, rests his hand on
the robot arm he built and named and salvaged and
talks to all the time. �I�m staying. And I... I want
to stay with you.� He�s fairly certain this isn�t
coming out right. �What I�m trying to say is �� �Sir.
I apologise for interrupting but Colonel Rhodes is in
reception.� Tony
looks up and yells, �Timing!� �I
thought perhaps you needed rescuing from the hole you
were digging for yourself. May I suggest, Sir, that
after everything Doctor Banner went through when you
were in Tennessee, a simple admission of affection
would suffice?� Bruce�s
head snaps up, first to look at the ceiling, then to
look at Tony. �Remind
me to reprogram you, J,� he mutters, then points back
towards the elevator. �I should....� Bruce nods and
smiles and he hesitates long enough to nod and smile
back. This is why he loves Bruce, because they
understand one another. �I�ll introduce you.� �Are
you sure? He�s from your other life and prior to now
you haven�t exactly been eager for the two to
overlap.� �I�m
here now. I don�t have another life. Malibu�s over.�
He hesitates, but he knows it�s true when he says,
�You�re my life now.� Then he leaves the lab before
Bruce can ask him what the hell he means by that. ~ It�s
good to see Rhodey. He�s been there through the really
bad times, he�s a friend Tony can count on to always
come after him, to always be there for him, no matter
what. They share a hug in reception. He has no idea
what his old friend is doing here but Malibu had to
catch up with him eventually and it isn�t even that he
ran from there the way he ran from here months ago,
when no one chased him because only Bruce knew he�d
gone and Bruce knew he wasn�t welcome to follow. �What
are you doing here?� Tony asks him and makes it sound
friendly. �Pepper
said you�re not rebuilding the house in Malibu,�
Rhodey explains, and while his tone stays light Tony
can hear the accusation loud and clear. �I happened to
be over here and I thought I�d swing by and say hi.
Nice pad by the way, a bit understated for you.� That
is a joke and Tony laughs. �It
did have my name in lights on the side but that got
destroyed in the battle.� �You
didn�t put it back?� �Thought
about it, but the �A� seems more fitting.� �Why�s
that?� �Because
other Avengers treat the place like a hotel.� He
delivers the line like it�s a joke but it�s not and
they both know it. This is where their friendship
deviates and Tony�s truly sorry for that but if he�s
here permanently he needs to find a way of making it
work. �Why don�t I give you the tour?� There�s
a communal living space on the eightieth, the same
floor Steve�s apartment is on. Clint and Phil are
sprawled on the couch in the lounge. Phil�s still on
medical leave and apparently Clint�s forgiven him
because the way they�re all twisted up together with
Clint�s legs over Phil�s knees and Phil�s arms around
Clint�s waist. Tony doesn�t recognise the movie
they�re watching on the insanely big screen, but Tom
Cruise is doing some insanely lurid dance in front of
Matthew McConaughey and the two SHIELD agents are
laughing like hyenas. He introduces Rhodey to the
international assassin and his lover-cum-handler in
the hope that he�ll understand that they may be
superheroes but they�re still just people. He hopes he
can understand that when he meets Bruce. Steve�s
in the kitchen making coffee. He�s in a blue T-shirt
and jeans and looks just like a regular person. He
chats to Rhodey, asks him about the Iron Patriot and
the Mandarin � Tony�s told the story so many times yet
they still don�t believe him but Rhodey backs him up
even if it does sound like fiction. Then
Tony takes him down to the lab he shares with Bruce.
He�s still trying to train the robots, bouncing a ball
between them and letting them catch it or chase it.
Something�s going to get broken but Tony�s never cared
about things like that. He loves that Bruce is taking
an interest in the kids. It�s a metaphor he can get
behind. �You dug them
out of the wreckage.� Rhodey points out with a smile
on his face and Tony nods. �What else did you rescue?� �Nothing.�
He steps forward and Rhodey follows. �Rhodey, this is
Doctor Bruce Banner. Bruce, meet Colonel James Rhodes.
Iron Patriot.� Rhodey
pulls a face as they shake hands. �I think they�re
going back to calling me War Machine. You know, I�ve
known these two forever and I�ve never seen them do
anything this intricate before.� Bruce
gives Rhodey the same explanation as he gave Tony. �That�s
amazing,� he unwittingly echoes Tony, and it sounds
like he means it. It makes Tony feel warm inside
because he needs Rhodey and Bruce to get along, they
have to get along because Rhodey�s going to be in his
life, going to be at his side during the battles Bruce
can�t be. He�s one lucky son-of-a-bitch to have the
friends he has.
When
they�re back up in the kitchen, Rhodey says, �You�re
staying here.� It�s not quite a question, not quite a
statement. But
Tony nods. �Yeah.� �What
about Pepper?� Tony
knows the answer to that, but it�s something he needs
to say to Pepper before he says it to anyone else. �I
lived here before the battle,� he points out. �We
managed then. She travels a lot, I travel a lot.� Rhodey
looks like he�s about to say something about that but
a burst of laughter comes from the lounge and that
seems to change his tack. �So,
you don�t mind sharing your place?� Tony
smiles with a shake of his head. �It�s ninety-two
stories high. And this is the communal area. I do have
the penthouse apartment which is private.� �Even
from Doctor Banner?� There
it is. He knew Rhodey wouldn�t disappoint him. He
smiles wanly. �No.� �I
knew there was something, Tony. When you came back to
Malibu it was if you�d left a part of you here, and
not the superhero part of you. It was something else,
something deeper. I didn�t ask; I knew if you wanted
to talk about it you would. Don�t think I was quite
expecting this but he�s down there working with your
robots, using your stuff and you don�t share easily,
Tony - I should know. So I�m guessing that makes him
very special.� Tony nods. �You know... there are
stories about him. Are you sure he�s safe to be
around?� He just needs to pull a face. �Don�t look at
me like that. I know, he�s a superhero and he seems
like a nice guy but I worry about you.� �No
need. At the end of the battle, the Hulk saved my
life. Even if something happens, he won�t hurt me.� �A
few of the upper echelons of the military have real
hard-ons for Doctor Banner.� That�s
one fight Tony�s looking forward to having. �They can
go fuck themselves. Seriously. Anyone lays a finger on
him, I�ll kill them. He�s not a lab experiment. He�s
the sweetest guy I�ve ever met and he�s my friend.� �Just
your friend?� Tony didn�t need to answer that. �See,
this is what I don�t get. I�ve known you what?
Forever? And I know you don�t discriminate in who you
sleep around with but this... this kinda feels more
serious.� �Because
he�s a guy?� �Because
you�re being very coy about it, Tony. And I thought
you and Pepper....� �We
were. In Malibu.� �But
you�re not in Malibu. And you don�t intend to go
back.� �I
know.� He nods, elbows on the counter and chin in his
hand. �I need to call her.� Rhodey
stares. �You�re dumping Pepper for a guy?� Tony
chuckles. �I�d die for Bruce, and you know how much I
love being alive. Unfortunately, she�s not a price I�m
not willing to pay.� �He
asked you to?� �He
would never, ever think to ask me for anything.� ~ They
lie in bed together that night, sated and sweat-damp
from exhaustion, Bruce lying on his front with Tony on
his side next to him, fingers splayed on Bruce�s
shoulder. �I
was having nightmares that were so intense they
brought the armour to the room. Can you imagine what
that would have done for you? Being attacked by an
Iron Man suit at three in the morning? Pepper just
freaked out and went to sleep in another room. With
you we�d have been remodelling every other day.� Bruce
sees right through it. �Yes, I can look after myself.
Yes, if one of your suits attacks me the very worst
that�s going to happen is another hole in your tower.
So if you need to be with Pepper, I�ll leave with
that, but don�t use your neurosis as an excuse not to
be with me.� Tony
sighs softly. �I don�t need to be with Pepper. I
called her. I told her about you. She told me she
didn�t want to see me again for a while so I think we
can safely say it�s over.� Bruce
looks back, frowning, and that isn�t the reaction Tony
expected. �I�m so sorry....� �I�m
not. I couldn�t have you both and as much as I love
Pepper, for whatever reason, I love you more. You need
to believe that and remember it every day because I�m
not an easy guy to be with and I will drive you
insane.� He
looks like he didn�t know if it was okay to smile.
Instead he says, �You�ll drive me insane? You�ll note
I�ve been living alone and on the run for years? And
you�ve met my worse half, right?� Tony
reaches out and combs his fingers through the thick
salt and pepper hair above Bruce�s ear. �Hey! No
insulting the Hulk, okay? And no putting yourself
down. You�re with me now and I�m fucking fantastic,
which means you must be too.� He finally gets Bruce to
smile. �I
can�t believe what you�ve given up for me.� �Believe
me, I only ever give up stuff if I�m forced to or if I
think I�m going to get something out of it. I�m not an
altruistic guy. Being with you has its own rewards,
and I�m not talking about your brain � although it�s
really hot to finally be with someone who can
understand me without the need for everything to be
dumbed down � and it helps of course that you�re real
easy on the eyes, you�ve got a phenomenal body and
you�re incredibly adventurous in bed.� Bruce clearly
doesn�t know what to do with any of that. Tony scoots
forward and touches his lips to Bruce�s mouth. �Look
at everything you�ve given up for me,� he whispers and
he hopes they�re going to be okay because he really,
really wants them to be. |